Day one, again.
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I made it one day again, my will power is low and it should be high, but I'm still lifting and trying to moderate even though I know it doesn't work. I did shave my beard today for a work related charity event (the beer has added too much bulk).
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TallWater....
lawdogg...
Welcome...glad you are here with us...
I've been useing AA for my sucessful recovery for many years.
I hope you wil check out what AA has to offer.
lawdogg...
Welcome...glad you are here with us...
I've been useing AA for my sucessful recovery for many years.
I hope you wil check out what AA has to offer.
10 days for me, I remember quite vividly that nasty agonizing feeling of defeat, driving home from a crack binge, scared to face my family b/c I did it again and the overwhelming feeling of self disgust, shame and depression. Since then I slowly got the strength to go to meetings, work with my sponser, work my steps. I see others who believe there is hope for me and it helps to know that they believe in me although I have little hope for myself most of the time. Good Luck
Tallwater I can totally relate to wanting a wine when you get home. I stopped almost 2yrs ago and got 6mths. I picked up again and drank that glass of wine/ bottle and for over a further 18mths drank almost daily. I now have only 12 days behind me but I could so easily open that wine every evening. The thing is I just know that I will have to go through this again and again until I change the cycle. No matter how much I want to have that wine (and trust me I want it) every single evening from around 4pm that is all I think about, I just know that I will achieve very little else with my life if I don't somehow break this hold it has over me. All I can do is take it a moment at a time because quite honestly I don't think I have the strength to face a whole day at a time. I trust and know (from stopping before) that this does and will get easier. Keep posting regardless, you will get there in the end, just don't give up.
Tallwater I can totally relate to wanting a wine when you get home. I stopped almost 2yrs ago and got 6mths. I picked up again and drank that glass of wine/ bottle and for over a further 18mths drank almost daily. I now have only 12 days behind me but I could so easily open that wine every evening. The thing is I just know that I will have to go through this again and again until I change the cycle. No matter how much I want to have that wine (and trust me I want it) every single evening from around 4pm that is all I think about, I just know that I will achieve very little else with my life if I don't somehow break this hold it has over me. All I can do is take it a moment at a time because quite honestly I don't think I have the strength to face a whole day at a time. I trust and know (from stopping before) that this does and will get easier. Keep posting regardless, you will get there in the end, just don't give up.
I lifted hard last night and had a long day at work (I work a swing shift 4 days a week) and wanted to watch Dexter tonight, but I forgot to set the dvr to record.
Tonight was a 12 million dollar install of network gear, done stone cold sober:
That's the network side of the internet.
Day 2 for me as well I guess.
I think I drank all the wine in the fridge (scared to look) so as long as I avoid the urge to go to the store I may be OK. I know the real test comes on Friday.
Just going to keep focussing on not drinking today.
Hang in there TW.
I think I drank all the wine in the fridge (scared to look) so as long as I avoid the urge to go to the store I may be OK. I know the real test comes on Friday.
Just going to keep focussing on not drinking today.
Hang in there TW.
I'm new here, too. I have been a horrible binge drinker for the past 3 years and have drank since I was 15. I am 28 now. Got off of a FORTY day binge months ago and had a huge seizure. It scared the crap out of me. Well, just got off a 9 day binge and had another seizure and my families starting to hate me. I really wanna stop this time. Day 2 for me. Hope and wish you all the best!
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