on day 3 after 1 yr of everyday drinking
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You haven't lost the fight and don't dwell on your past too much please. That can set you into another tailspin. Focus on your future and the possibilities that await you. Self discovery is a wonderful road to be on. If you had not had the past you had then you wouldn't be at these crossroads. There is a reason and a season and you made it. Woo hoo!
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on day 3 after 1 yr of everyday drinking
HI, On day three. Wow, feeling alot better than i deserve. I cant believe my body has not crashed on me during all this time of abuse. Im talking for a woman at least a pint of rum a day, not mixed, straight. I dont drive so maybe all that bike riding has helped my body fight for its life. But my head is clear, I cant remember thinking so clear and organized and I know I am still in detox, What was I thinking. Im going to be doing some research about my behavier and life experiences that keep me a prisioner. My whole life is pretty much a loss. Sure I did things, had jobs, had boyfriends, had hobbies etc.. But nothing compared to what I could have done if I had not been drinking everyday since I was at least 18 now Ill be 47 in Oct. Not much to show. Im not about blame but I do need to do some self research so I can get on with what is the rest of my life the way it should be.
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Hi Ventura
Congrats on the 3 days
I think you're being a bit hard on yourself - noones life is a total loss.
I used to think about wasted opportunities etc but there really is little point wasted energy on things we can't go back and redo. We need to focus on today.
These day I tend to think everything I did, good and bad, has bought me to this point in time, and made me who I am today - & that's no bad thing
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Congrats on the 3 days
I think you're being a bit hard on yourself - noones life is a total loss.
I used to think about wasted opportunities etc but there really is little point wasted energy on things we can't go back and redo. We need to focus on today.
These day I tend to think everything I did, good and bad, has bought me to this point in time, and made me who I am today - & that's no bad thing
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Originally Posted by ventura47 
HI, On day three. Wow, feeling alot better than i deserve. I cant believe my body has not crashed on me during all this time of abuse. Im talking for a woman at least a pint of rum a day, not mixed, straight. I dont drive so maybe all that bike riding has helped my body fight for its life. But my head is clear, I cant remember thinking so clear and organized and I know I am still in detox, What was I thinking. Im going to be doing some research about my behavier and life experiences that keep me a prisioner. My whole life is pretty much a loss. Sure I did things, had jobs, had boyfriends, had hobbies etc.. But nothing compared to what I could have done if I had not been drinking everyday since I was at least 18 now Ill be 47 in Oct. Not much to show. Im not about blame but I do need to do some self research so I can get on with what is the rest of my life the way it should be.
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Join Date: Sep 2011
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seems like we drink the same
sure, if you space them apart then you most likely wont black out. Ill go on episodes when I have had too much too soon and when my boyfriend comes home from work he knows it. Im a mean drunk, we fight and yell I dont remember anything I say, this is only on blackout but I never know when they come. Ive lost soooo many possesions on a blackout, including three bikes. Im soooo tired of this, what does rum do for me? it's not my friend, although I dont have any, maybe I think it is my only friend. Hope I can make some real ones here.
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Ventura - I like the way you put that - rum isn't your friend. I clung to alcohol for fun and comfort - and it brought me neither one in the end. It sure did turn on me! I had to see it as poison, then I was able to let go.
Very glad you are here with us - we care about you and want to help. Keep talking to us. You can do this.
Very glad you are here with us - we care about you and want to help. Keep talking to us. You can do this.
Don't give up. The first few weeks can be rough but it does get better.
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Hi and Welcome Ventura!
I hope you get to a point where you don't see your life as a loss. You have each and every day to do things differently and to make a positive impact in your world.
I hope you get to a point where you don't see your life as a loss. You have each and every day to do things differently and to make a positive impact in your world.
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Congratulations on getting to day 3 !
I'm on day 2 after a relapse and the only thing I am struggling with is a headache (and sore kidneys). Drinking plenty of tea/coffee/squash etc, but I guess it's going to take another day or so until my brain forgives me. Hang in there pal, we are all in it together
I'm on day 2 after a relapse and the only thing I am struggling with is a headache (and sore kidneys). Drinking plenty of tea/coffee/squash etc, but I guess it's going to take another day or so until my brain forgives me. Hang in there pal, we are all in it together
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