The Wibble returns
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I know what he meant I wondered to what degree. To me on the lash is out on a pub/club crawl not a couple of glases of wine. But either way drinking is drinking I suppose.I have to keep reading and posting even if I haven't managed to stop. If I didn't visit this place daily, I'd convince myself I didn't have a problem and besides Nands would disappear!!!
Didn't know you had done that to your back Nands. Things really do happen for a reason
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This really is an interesting little ride already.
Been through just about every different emotion today. Weekdays are easy enough as i'd convinced myself that just drinking Thursday-Sunday meant I was ok.
Ok sometimes i'd drink Tuesday and possibly Mondays.
But Definitely not Wednesday
Ok actually there were a few times on Wednesday
But in principal you know what I mean.
Anyway, weekdays are easy (see above) but already having thoughts about denying myself and the weekend approaching.
I can feel myself inch by inch coming out of this fog that surrounds me but theres a huge part of me that wants to crawl back into it.
Its scary out here in the light...I have to do stuff...I have to achieve...
Been through just about every different emotion today. Weekdays are easy enough as i'd convinced myself that just drinking Thursday-Sunday meant I was ok.
Ok sometimes i'd drink Tuesday and possibly Mondays.
But Definitely not Wednesday
Ok actually there were a few times on Wednesday
But in principal you know what I mean.
Anyway, weekdays are easy (see above) but already having thoughts about denying myself and the weekend approaching.
I can feel myself inch by inch coming out of this fog that surrounds me but theres a huge part of me that wants to crawl back into it.
Its scary out here in the light...I have to do stuff...I have to achieve...
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Originally Posted by Pixy1 
I know what he meant I wondered to what degree. To me on the lash is out on a pub/club crawl not a couple of glases of wine. But either way drinking is drinking I suppose.Hello Louise
You might have convinced yourself it was a couple of glasses but unless you've managed to acquire a wine glass that fits half a bottle in it, I doubt very much it was a couple
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Thats weird, I posted a reply to your post but it appeared before your post?
I'm good but not that good
Dee????
It's weekdays I find the hardest. I can almost bare the weekend sober but weekdays I find difficult. Especially 4.30 - 8.30pm
I'm good but not that good
Dee????
It's weekdays I find the hardest. I can almost bare the weekend sober but weekdays I find difficult. Especially 4.30 - 8.30pm
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Wibbles...eventually we do have to "achieve" I suppose, but really not this week...just for one or two weeks can you make sobriety the only thing that matters?
I started thinking my work mattered the most and pretty soon I couldn't handle how work made me feel, then the drink drew me in.
Sobriety doesn't mean you can't achieve, but sometimes for a bit you need to put it above the achievement.
We make temporary sacrafices to reach the long term goal. Being sober won't stop you from anything you need to do and want to do in your life! But sometimes, just like if you have the flue or some other life thing...I have to put the things I want on the back burner and do what I have to do to get through the sober thing.
wibbles, I think your on to something here...think about this a bit. It may be just the biggest lie your alchoholism uses to keep you traped. Been there, done that, in the end the alchoholism made me unable to achieve...as scarry as the light is, once you face it...well things change...you may start to like the light ! (hug)
I started thinking my work mattered the most and pretty soon I couldn't handle how work made me feel, then the drink drew me in.
Sobriety doesn't mean you can't achieve, but sometimes for a bit you need to put it above the achievement.
We make temporary sacrafices to reach the long term goal. Being sober won't stop you from anything you need to do and want to do in your life! But sometimes, just like if you have the flue or some other life thing...I have to put the things I want on the back burner and do what I have to do to get through the sober thing.
Its scary out here in the light...I have to do stuff...I have to achieve...
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Originally Posted by Pixy1
It's weekdays I find the hardest. I can almost bare the weekend sober but weekdays I find difficult. Especially 4.30 - 8.30pm
I was thinking...I have some friends who don't understand alchoholism at all...but if I missed their wedding cause I said I thought I couldn't do it and not drink...they would suport me...not understand, but as friends they want me to do what i need to do and would be ok with it. you can go out for coffee one morning with the bride to be or whoever or whatever...I wouldn't expect a person with a gambling problem to go to the casino with me for a special occation. I'd do my plans, but I wouldn't expect them to be able to attend. Thats what friends do for each other.
I hope you decide not to go, but appreciate your honesty.
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Its a beautiful morning here. Slept a little better, still a way off sleeping well but at the moment i'll take what I can.
I can feel day by day that reality is creeping in. Stuff i've put off or hidden is starting to wave its hands at me begging my attention.
Its a strange feeling.
Its still a beautiful morning though...
I can feel day by day that reality is creeping in. Stuff i've put off or hidden is starting to wave its hands at me begging my attention.
Its a strange feeling.
Its still a beautiful morning though...
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It's beautiful out there indeed....I can't believe this weather! Been soooooo busy i didn't get much time to get out in it. It's supposed to be nice tomorrow so as I'm off I'll be sunning it up!
Nands if I hadn't of arranged the evening myself I would call it off. I just don't want to let her down after not turning up for her party a few weeks back.
Nands if I hadn't of arranged the evening myself I would call it off. I just don't want to let her down after not turning up for her party a few weeks back.
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I'm so tempted to take the p*ss out of that comment pix...
But i'll be mature
That doesn't come naturally I have to say
I'll wait in the wings to pounce tomorrow when you are feeling dreadful
Well more dreadful than normal
I have to say I keep feeling dreadful. Absolutely no fun at all in Wibble World.
But i'll be mature
That doesn't come naturally I have to say
I'll wait in the wings to pounce tomorrow when you are feeling dreadful
Well more dreadful than normal
I have to say I keep feeling dreadful. Absolutely no fun at all in Wibble World.
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OK...I held off all day, but I'll do it...mostly cause you deserve the truth Pix (hug)
That's such a typical excuse its just unreal!
If this woman never talked to you again for the rest of your life, but you got sober....I'd say good trade. And if she is a friend that wouldn't even happen!
My councelor called me from my last treatment a week ago..I whined that I am sober, but every day is hell cause I fight the excuses to get drunk that hit me left, right and center every day....His advise..."start looking for an excuse to stay sober"...simple and true...Although I still struggle, I remember what he said to me cause h*ll there will ALWAYS be a reason to drink if I want one....
Go to the dmn party and don't drink....or stay home and don't drink...
OK..it's too late to be telling you this, so see you tomarrow, and lets work on ways to stop letting our desire to drink/alkie thinking/whatever waltz in the door anytime it pleases!
Wibbles, I had a sht day today...I cleaned the crp out of the house and I got all my problems wrong on the first assignment of the week and still don't "get it"...that happens...If I stay sober, read again, try to relax a bit and carry on...things do fall into place...maybe not "a" style, but c or b style
You have alot of people pulling for you Wibbles, It doesn't always change things, but lean on it a bit when you are having one of those sht days (hug)
FUN WILL COME IN TIME...not 24/7, but enough to make it all ok!!!!!
(ducks from the rotton tomatos being tossed in her direction)
That's such a typical excuse its just unreal!
If this woman never talked to you again for the rest of your life, but you got sober....I'd say good trade. And if she is a friend that wouldn't even happen!
My councelor called me from my last treatment a week ago..I whined that I am sober, but every day is hell cause I fight the excuses to get drunk that hit me left, right and center every day....His advise..."start looking for an excuse to stay sober"...simple and true...Although I still struggle, I remember what he said to me cause h*ll there will ALWAYS be a reason to drink if I want one....
Go to the dmn party and don't drink....or stay home and don't drink...
OK..it's too late to be telling you this, so see you tomarrow, and lets work on ways to stop letting our desire to drink/alkie thinking/whatever waltz in the door anytime it pleases!
Wibbles, I had a sht day today...I cleaned the crp out of the house and I got all my problems wrong on the first assignment of the week and still don't "get it"...that happens...If I stay sober, read again, try to relax a bit and carry on...things do fall into place...maybe not "a" style, but c or b style
You have alot of people pulling for you Wibbles, It doesn't always change things, but lean on it a bit when you are having one of those sht days (hug)
FUN WILL COME IN TIME...not 24/7, but enough to make it all ok!!!!!
(ducks from the rotton tomatos being tossed in her direction)
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I hesitated too but I may as well add my bit too - I don't want you to feel we're ganging up on you Pix - we all care about you, and if friends say nothing, who will?
I spent years not wanting to let people down...and mostly that involved drinking with them...funny the times when I really did let them down though my over imbibing never entered my head....
You know whats right for you, Pix - and you know it's more important than what someone else thinks.
Every time you do something you know is wrong for you, you're letting your addiction holds the reins - and that sucks.
here's to day one, mate
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I spent years not wanting to let people down...and mostly that involved drinking with them...funny the times when I really did let them down though my over imbibing never entered my head....
You know whats right for you, Pix - and you know it's more important than what someone else thinks.
Every time you do something you know is wrong for you, you're letting your addiction holds the reins - and that sucks.
here's to day one, mate
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