I didn't see it until I was ready to see it.....
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I didn't see it until I was ready to see it.....
Tomorrow will be 30 days since I have had a drink. It has been a rollercoaster of emotions and I am grateful to have come through that. I was thinking today that I always felt sorry for myself because things just were'nt going my way...whether it was my business, relationships, finances. I thought if this or that would happen life would be great! Now, living this last month with a clear head, I realize what should have been obvious....the problem was alchohol. I always knew it, but never was ready to see it, until now. I love the way I feel, the situations of life are still there of course, but I can deal with them now. I don't have to make a stop every night at the liquor store with my 6 yr old in tow, I am there for her when she wants to read a book at night, i know that if anything were to happen that I would be able to drive if need be.....and when my daughter climbs into bed with me in the morning I don't have to hear her say "mommy, you smell when you sleep".(stale wine breath..yukk!)....that is what made me say.."that's it, no more". I want so much more for myself and for her. Anyway, just wanted to say that I am so grateful today to God and to all of you here at SR. I don't post often, but I read alot and it helps me tremendously. Thanks.
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Great post peaceful1 - thank you for it!
Glad to hear that you are doing so well and feel so good. I can really understand your feelings about being there and being sober for your daughter...that was a big one for me too.
I quit in June, so am coming up on 100 days pretty soon. I tell you that because your post got me to remembering how everyone in our group was excited and feeling good in those first thirty days. Almost everyone went through some rough patches after that though -some relapsed but many did not. For me it was anger and depression and it was hard.
You might be one of the lucky ones that continues to feel great. I just thought it prudent to put it out there for you just so that you know it is normal and that if you can ride it out things truly do get even better on the other side!
You're doing a great job so far! Keep it up!
Glad to hear that you are doing so well and feel so good. I can really understand your feelings about being there and being sober for your daughter...that was a big one for me too.
I quit in June, so am coming up on 100 days pretty soon. I tell you that because your post got me to remembering how everyone in our group was excited and feeling good in those first thirty days. Almost everyone went through some rough patches after that though -some relapsed but many did not. For me it was anger and depression and it was hard.
You might be one of the lucky ones that continues to feel great. I just thought it prudent to put it out there for you just so that you know it is normal and that if you can ride it out things truly do get even better on the other side!
You're doing a great job so far! Keep it up!
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Originally Posted by peaceful1 
I was thinking today that I always felt sorry for myself because things just were'nt going my way...whether it was my business, relationships, finances. I thought if this or that would happen life would be great! Now, living this last month with a clear head, I realize what should have been obvious....the problem was alchohol.
Well said... Congrats on 30 days!
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