Coco210

Alva...the single worst part of drinking is the not being able to remember...pure disgust on my part. Why? Because that has happened over and over and over again. I wont control how much I drink...that is a fact. Oh, at times I did...but more times than not I had blackouts. I lost a fiance over alot of things, one of them being not controlling myself at parties. I could see the disgust in his face. SIGH...but I accept the truth now...because I have to meet my demons halfway...

eJoshua

Welcome to SR!

Alva

Thanks Coco210,

Like many peoples experiences on here yours also rings true to my heart. Normally in the past I have been "talked to" and pressured to quit drinking which I tried to do albeit with little effort. For the first time I have decided to take control of my life which I hope is the difference.

artsoul

Hi Alva - welcome to the forum!
I don't think I could have stayed sober for someone else, either. I had to start caring about my life, something that's hard to do while our addiction is in control.

I wasn't sure I could do it, but the further I got from the last drink, the better I started to feel about myself. Hang in there - it gets better!