I'm just nervous
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I'm just nervous
I'm getting a little nervous.I hope that the positive feelings I've been having lately aren't just drug induced.
I cut off my drug supply so if I don't really want to quit;I pretty much screwed myself..
I cut off my drug supply so if I don't really want to quit;I pretty much screwed myself..
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It's a huge step Zorilla - but deep down I'm sure you know it's the right one.
Don't let the fear overrun you - you're not alone with this - there's a ton of support here.
There's many of us here who've made the leap into recovery.
I promise you it's worth it, zorilla
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Don't let the fear overrun you - you're not alone with this - there's a ton of support here.
There's many of us here who've made the leap into recovery.
I promise you it's worth it, zorilla
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I know that it's the right thing to do.
But I haven't been doing to hot for a long time doing the right thing
It's the idea of never having those pills again..and knowing that if I'd have kept my big mouth shut;I wouldn't have this worry.
But I haven't been doing to hot for a long time doing the right thing
It's the idea of never having those pills again..and knowing that if I'd have kept my big mouth shut;I wouldn't have this worry.
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I know i've just got to calm down.
But it wasn't easy finding a dr that would give me pills and i've just ****** up everyting
But it wasn't easy finding a dr that would give me pills and i've just ****** up everyting
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I know it's hard, but try to relax.
Look at your old posts - you came here for a reason - part of moving on from that life that bought you here is closing all the loopholes.
I hope you'll come to see this was the right thing to do, Zorilla
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Look at your old posts - you came here for a reason - part of moving on from that life that bought you here is closing all the loopholes.
I hope you'll come to see this was the right thing to do, Zorilla
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It was the right thing to do;it was the only thing to do.
I hate those ******* pills but i'm afraid because i still want them.I want so bad for the yrs past middle age to be the best ones of my life.And I had convinced myself that they would be;no matter what.
I've been doing very well in trying to find the good things in everything.It has made such a huge difference.But right now I still have pills and a beer bottle to suck on.when I get into that rehab and it's just me am I still going to want it no matter what.
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I hate those ******* pills but i'm afraid because i still want them.I want so bad for the yrs past middle age to be the best ones of my life.And I had convinced myself that they would be;no matter what.
I've been doing very well in trying to find the good things in everything.It has made such a huge difference.But right now I still have pills and a beer bottle to suck on.when I get into that rehab and it's just me am I still going to want it no matter what.
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What helped me was to write down the lists of reasons I was "giving up" the drugs and alchohol. I would keep this list in my pocket and anytime i had thoughts of wanting to use, i would look at the list and pray for relief. Even if i had no belief in "God" i prayed to the universe , the stars, my deceased relatives anything to here my personal Plees fOr help amd strengh. It really worked and helped me.
I also would place a rubber band around my wrist, anytime i would start to think ahead about the "future" and how i might "feel" in a few days etc. I would "snap" the rubberband to bring me back in the now. This moment right now i "choose" not to drink and use. If i think about the future, i "snap" the rubberband, come back to the now ans remind myself, in this moment "i choose" not to drink and use.
Walking and exercise (with the doctors permission) also certainly got me "out of my head" helped with depression and made me feel better as well.
Keep posting. Thanks for sharing and letting me share!
Keep it up.
I also would place a rubber band around my wrist, anytime i would start to think ahead about the "future" and how i might "feel" in a few days etc. I would "snap" the rubberband to bring me back in the now. This moment right now i "choose" not to drink and use. If i think about the future, i "snap" the rubberband, come back to the now ans remind myself, in this moment "i choose" not to drink and use.
Walking and exercise (with the doctors permission) also certainly got me "out of my head" helped with depression and made me feel better as well.
Keep posting. Thanks for sharing and letting me share!
Keep it up.
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You've made outstanding choices, zorilla. Every day, every moment, we all have good or bad choices to make. Many of those choices, good and bad, are unnerving. But, when we realize that we long ago made bad choices and ended up on a road that leads to nowhere, we must cut a new path back to the right road. We have to sift through the weeds, the rocky ground, and the briars. But on that less traveled road, we have the opportunity to find ourselves in a whole new world, and become troubadors of freedom like we've never known. Ours is a courageous journey, that leads to wisdom, joy, peace and serenity. And we take that with us wherever we go. Welcome to the wonderful journey. Fear not.
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