bayliss

Thanks to everyone that responded. Really appreciate it.
I guess I need to grow up a little and realize that this is definitely a blessing in disguise...and that there are people that love me and want to see me healthy and happy and that I shouldn't take advantage of it.
What I should take advantage of though is stay sober in my parents' home and work on getting better and loving myself.

I do think that I have that addict's voice inside my head, trying to convince me to pick up a drink and just forget all about my worries. I do need to learn to work on my feelings in a healthier way.
I believe my parents found over me this afternoon - not sure what about, don't think it is the drinking, but it has made me feel guilty and anxious...I need to deal with these feelings as much as I don't want to.
In order to live a healthy and happy life, this is what I need to do.

Thanks again everyone - you guys definitely helped me screw my head on a bit straighter.