Time to Start Over!
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Time to Start Over!
I was 16 days sober but slipped up last week.
I try not to beat myself up over it, but it's hard. I know it's not easy, especially in the beginning, but it seems like it should be. I have great will power over many other areas of my life, but somehow this one remains the hardest for me to stay on track and stick with my determination.
Cheers to making September a sober month!
I try not to beat myself up over it, but it's hard. I know it's not easy, especially in the beginning, but it seems like it should be. I have great will power over many other areas of my life, but somehow this one remains the hardest for me to stay on track and stick with my determination.
Cheers to making September a sober month!
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You're probably not addicted to those many other things, that's why it isn't easy when it seems like it should be. Simple, not easy--why we have SR. Determination is a bedrock on which to build with other support. May you find what you need to keep on keeping on. Thanks for your honest post. My best to you.
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Hi stravos -
Don't be too hard on yourself. Look at it this way: You now have more evidence that alcoholism is cunning, baffling and powerful.....You made it 16 days, and you're here posting - so give yourself a pat on the back for that!
One day at a time.... you can do it.
Don't be too hard on yourself. Look at it this way: You now have more evidence that alcoholism is cunning, baffling and powerful.....You made it 16 days, and you're here posting - so give yourself a pat on the back for that!
One day at a time.... you can do it.
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Originally Posted by artsoul 
Hi stravos -
Don't be too hard on yourself. Look at it this way: You now have more evidence that alcoholism is cunning, baffling and powerful.....You made it 16 days, and you're here posting - so give yourself a pat on the back for that!
One day at a time.... you can do it.
Don't be too hard on yourself. Look at it this way: You now have more evidence that alcoholism is cunning, baffling and powerful.....You made it 16 days, and you're here posting - so give yourself a pat on the back for that!
One day at a time.... you can do it.
Maybe I'm still trying to do that to a certain extent, but more so for myself than before.
I know I shouldn't beat myself up about it but I can't help feeling like I let myself and others down.
I guess all I can do now is start over and try again.
But the two weeks has always been my breaking point. I wish I could get that thought out of my head, but I'm stuck on that number. Maybe if I can push past and do three weeks, even four than I won't feel like I'm just destined to fall off again.
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Seems like it's pretty common to have weak spots at certain times in recovery. I relapsed twice after almost 4 years sober each time. That tells me I'm going to need to be proactive when I get close to that point again.
You'll figure it out - maybe you could plan something special around that time, spend a little more time here, get some motivational quotes to carry with you, read all your previous posts during that time........ whatever you think might work to carry you through.
I'm glad you're doing this for you..... It took a little while, but I feel good about myself again and you will too.
You'll figure it out - maybe you could plan something special around that time, spend a little more time here, get some motivational quotes to carry with you, read all your previous posts during that time........ whatever you think might work to carry you through.
I'm glad you're doing this for you..... It took a little while, but I feel good about myself again and you will too.
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Hi Stavros
I used to wonder what the hell was wrong with me too - I was a stubborn, driven, strong minded guy...but I couldn't stop drinking.
Eventually I found it wasn't actually willpower I needed at all - it was acceptance.
I had to accept I was addicted to alcohol and always would be.
Every time I drink alcohol I cede control of myself.
I had to reach a point of accepting that drinking alcohol can never be a viable option for me, under any circumstances - not if I want to be the man I want to be.
Once I accepted that, I made a promise to do everything in my power not to drink again - no matter how much effort was required.
Still holding strong to that through all the ups and downs of life, nearly 5 years later
D
I used to wonder what the hell was wrong with me too - I was a stubborn, driven, strong minded guy...but I couldn't stop drinking.
Eventually I found it wasn't actually willpower I needed at all - it was acceptance.
I had to accept I was addicted to alcohol and always would be.
Every time I drink alcohol I cede control of myself.
I had to reach a point of accepting that drinking alcohol can never be a viable option for me, under any circumstances - not if I want to be the man I want to be.
Once I accepted that, I made a promise to do everything in my power not to drink again - no matter how much effort was required.
Still holding strong to that through all the ups and downs of life, nearly 5 years later
D
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