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Hello all
I am new to the site, I hope this is in the correct section. If not then I am sorry about the mistake.
Even though I never was in rehab (though I almost checked into it) or actually diagnosed as being addicted to alcohol I know it has been a huge problem for me. I started drinking in 2002 and found booze to be an out for many things. Anger, depression, anxiety, and being bored. It also helped me gain a lot of friends. However the honeymoon was over in 2004 and by the fall of 2005 it started to push people away from me. I hit a low point in December 2008 when I got arrested for DUI. It was expensive, but far worse than that was the embarrassment that came with it. I told myself I would never drink again when I was sitting in jail, but during the time I couldn't drive I was mostly depressed and that lead to a lot of drinking. I rationalized by telling myself that it was OK to get wasted because I was not driving. In April 2011 there was a night that really changed me. It was a night were I blacked out from drinking, didn't know how much I spent (this was even worse than normal because I was saving up to move across the country) and almost got myself either very hurt or thrown in jail again. It hit me the next day that I had to quit because if I didn't I would end up broke, in jail, or dead. Since that night I have not blacked out but I did have a few nights of heavy drinking. The night of July 3rd I was drinking at a casino and having a good time. I was drinking until about 6:30am (about 8 strait hours) before I finally quit and got a room at the casino hotel. That day on July 4 I puked so many times I lost count. I lost track after 8 but I would bet I threw up over 30 times on that day. I was looking forward to a fun July 4th and my whole day was ruined because of the drinking the night before. I have not had a drop of alcohol since. Prior to that night I told myself it was OK to go out and have a beer or two and stop. What would happen though is I would eventualy have a night where I did not stop, and I learned that if I fool with that thinkig long enough I am going to fall back into the old habits. In the past two months there have been times I have craved drinks however I told myself that I will regret it if I start up again, and that has been the thinking that has helped me so far. Going forward I know there will be more challenges, urgers, and social pressures to drink. Hopefully I can be strong enough to overcome them. I am glad the people on here have. I look forward to reading the information and inspiring stories that I am sure so many of you have.
Even though I never was in rehab (though I almost checked into it) or actually diagnosed as being addicted to alcohol I know it has been a huge problem for me. I started drinking in 2002 and found booze to be an out for many things. Anger, depression, anxiety, and being bored. It also helped me gain a lot of friends. However the honeymoon was over in 2004 and by the fall of 2005 it started to push people away from me. I hit a low point in December 2008 when I got arrested for DUI. It was expensive, but far worse than that was the embarrassment that came with it. I told myself I would never drink again when I was sitting in jail, but during the time I couldn't drive I was mostly depressed and that lead to a lot of drinking. I rationalized by telling myself that it was OK to get wasted because I was not driving. In April 2011 there was a night that really changed me. It was a night were I blacked out from drinking, didn't know how much I spent (this was even worse than normal because I was saving up to move across the country) and almost got myself either very hurt or thrown in jail again. It hit me the next day that I had to quit because if I didn't I would end up broke, in jail, or dead. Since that night I have not blacked out but I did have a few nights of heavy drinking. The night of July 3rd I was drinking at a casino and having a good time. I was drinking until about 6:30am (about 8 strait hours) before I finally quit and got a room at the casino hotel. That day on July 4 I puked so many times I lost count. I lost track after 8 but I would bet I threw up over 30 times on that day. I was looking forward to a fun July 4th and my whole day was ruined because of the drinking the night before. I have not had a drop of alcohol since. Prior to that night I told myself it was OK to go out and have a beer or two and stop. What would happen though is I would eventualy have a night where I did not stop, and I learned that if I fool with that thinkig long enough I am going to fall back into the old habits. In the past two months there have been times I have craved drinks however I told myself that I will regret it if I start up again, and that has been the thinking that has helped me so far. Going forward I know there will be more challenges, urgers, and social pressures to drink. Hopefully I can be strong enough to overcome them. I am glad the people on here have. I look forward to reading the information and inspiring stories that I am sure so many of you have.
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Hi Mr Silver 
I think most of us reach a turning point where we simply can't convince ourselves anymore that drinking is ok for us.
Sound like you've reached that point.
You'll find a lot of support here - the support I've found here has helped me to stay sober beyond hoping I was strong enough - there really is a communal strength here at SR
Welcome
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I think most of us reach a turning point where we simply can't convince ourselves anymore that drinking is ok for us.
Sound like you've reached that point.
You'll find a lot of support here - the support I've found here has helped me to stay sober beyond hoping I was strong enough - there really is a communal strength here at SR
Welcome
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When my drinking turned me into a deeply depressed woman...my doctor
suggested I abstain and begin attending local AA meetings.
I was not thrilled at either idea...but the daily depression was horrific
so off I went......and have remained....now I'm a recovered AA alcoholic..
Welcome to SR....
Please do keep posting Yes you can win over alcohol
Many of us are doing that very thing useing all sorts of methods and approaches..
suggested I abstain and begin attending local AA meetings.
I was not thrilled at either idea...but the daily depression was horrific
so off I went......and have remained....now I'm a recovered AA alcoholic..
Welcome to SR....
Please do keep posting Yes you can win over alcoholMany of us are doing that very thing useing all sorts of methods and approaches..
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I can relate but I got 2 DUIs in 1.5 years. It's not fun but I thought that I can control which I did a few times but it caught up to me and now I'm on day 5, telling myself life will get better because alcohol will be out of my life for good.
I don't know about your but I thought just because I was adult, I was allow to have it which I can but it's more adult for to not because at the end I will be more happy about myself.
Good luck with yourself and welcome to SR.
I don't know about your but I thought just because I was adult, I was allow to have it which I can but it's more adult for to not because at the end I will be more happy about myself.
Good luck with yourself and welcome to SR.
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