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Just checking in
Well I am working on it. I have not had a drink since my last post, which was maybe two weeks ago. I actually dont have my exact day count.
I've been through a lot in the last two weeks. Went through an evacuation for hurricane Irene. I am still struggling with the deaths of my cat and my brother in law. The neighbor whose dog killed my cat is refusing to take any responsibility even though his dog was loose and my cat was in my yard. The whole attack was seen. To top it off the dog killed again. This time a cute little dog that was walking on a leash with my elderly neighbor. The dog knocked my neighbor over and hurt her too. Police are slow to respond, just giving him warnings and telling him not to let the dog run.
I am also trying so hard to understand the senselessness of my brother in law's passing. He was only 47 and much older than I am. His death was directly linked to an overdose of cocaine and alcohol. It just makes me so very sad. It is also so scary for me. I never have used drugs but definitely drink and that was a major contributing factor. Terrible tragedy. My sister in law is not dealing well with this. She also has addiction issues. Its so conflicted.
Of course there are other issue but I wont bore you with the details.
So still sober but coming face to face with some very hard realities that make my world feel like it is spinning out of my control.
I've been through a lot in the last two weeks. Went through an evacuation for hurricane Irene. I am still struggling with the deaths of my cat and my brother in law. The neighbor whose dog killed my cat is refusing to take any responsibility even though his dog was loose and my cat was in my yard. The whole attack was seen. To top it off the dog killed again. This time a cute little dog that was walking on a leash with my elderly neighbor. The dog knocked my neighbor over and hurt her too. Police are slow to respond, just giving him warnings and telling him not to let the dog run.
I am also trying so hard to understand the senselessness of my brother in law's passing. He was only 47 and much older than I am. His death was directly linked to an overdose of cocaine and alcohol. It just makes me so very sad. It is also so scary for me. I never have used drugs but definitely drink and that was a major contributing factor. Terrible tragedy. My sister in law is not dealing well with this. She also has addiction issues. Its so conflicted.
Of course there are other issue but I wont bore you with the details.
So still sober but coming face to face with some very hard realities that make my world feel like it is spinning out of my control.
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Join Date: Aug 2011
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Biza,
Your life sounds chaotic to say the least. Are you trying to do this on your own?
You really need support.
It really does show your underlying strength that you are going through all of this without drinking, I really mean that, especially in that you are newly sober.
You seem like a nice caring guy. I hope that you find your way out of this mess.
CaiHong
Your life sounds chaotic to say the least. Are you trying to do this on your own?
You really need support.
It really does show your underlying strength that you are going through all of this without drinking, I really mean that, especially in that you are newly sober.
You seem like a nice caring guy. I hope that you find your way out of this mess.
CaiHong
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Hey Biza -
I remember reading in another post about your cat and bro in law passing, and if I didn't then let me now express my condolences to you. Anyways, I am happy to hear that you've stayed sober despite the hectic nature of your life. I hope that in time you will see that although your life may feel out of control at the moment that if you were drinking as well it would be much worse.
Best wishes
I remember reading in another post about your cat and bro in law passing, and if I didn't then let me now express my condolences to you. Anyways, I am happy to hear that you've stayed sober despite the hectic nature of your life. I hope that in time you will see that although your life may feel out of control at the moment that if you were drinking as well it would be much worse.
Best wishes
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Biza - You're certainly not boring us. We're here to share your troubles & help you make it through. Be proud of yourself for not falling back on drinking at a terrible time like this. It's so much better to not be in a fog, & to face things with a clear head.
I'm hoping you'll keep sharing your feelings with us - it helps relieve some of the anxiety when you can talk about things. Life will get better - nothing stays the same for long.
I'm hoping you'll keep sharing your feelings with us - it helps relieve some of the anxiety when you can talk about things. Life will get better - nothing stays the same for long.
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