3 months or 90 days
~sb
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Join Date: Jul 2011
Location: MD
Posts: 15,967
3 months or 90 days
3+ months ago my life was a mess of my own making. I was a wreck drinking 6 beers daily. It didn't seem like much, but it meant I was always inebriated...daily. My body was constantly not sober.
Worried about food and rent and bills...
I surrendered battling my disease. Something clicked and the one day at a time drinking led to one day at a time NOT drinking or smoking weed. I attended not 1, but 1-4 AA meetings daily. I walked through nervous fears just to get there, sit, and listen.
Today I have people who call (I make 0-1+ meetings daily, at least 4 a week) if I am missed. I have people telling me I look alive or better. Sober social activities and real conversations I can recall.
I am not nervous or anxious today. My bills are paid, my rent paid and food in the apartment. I have SR and in person support. I will be doing a second 4th and 5th step this coming weekend which I am looking forward to.
I have hope, joy and contentment. I will be seeking employment soon, & I am looking forward to it.
I want to thank you all for being here! I wish you a wonderful day today. Peace & Love to you:day6
Worried about food and rent and bills...
I surrendered battling my disease. Something clicked and the one day at a time drinking led to one day at a time NOT drinking or smoking weed. I attended not 1, but 1-4 AA meetings daily. I walked through nervous fears just to get there, sit, and listen.
Today I have people who call (I make 0-1+ meetings daily, at least 4 a week) if I am missed. I have people telling me I look alive or better. Sober social activities and real conversations I can recall.
I am not nervous or anxious today. My bills are paid, my rent paid and food in the apartment. I have SR and in person support. I will be doing a second 4th and 5th step this coming weekend which I am looking forward to.
I have hope, joy and contentment. I will be seeking employment soon, & I am looking forward to it.
I want to thank you all for being here! I wish you a wonderful day today. Peace & Love to you:day6
~sb
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Join Date: Jul 2011
Location: MD
Posts: 15,967
Absolutely! It's not about money or the things I've aquired (I'm rebuilding my life, lost my man 3 years ago, got rid of his things, furniture, etc and am getting my apartment settled since I moved In January and am organizing now - couldn't do much drinking); it IS about finding my authentic self today. That is priceless!
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Join Date: Apr 2011
Location: Portland
Posts: 1,631
Congratulations SB. Yesterday, at my first real AA meeting (found my AA home) I held the two coins that had been earned. They had been held by the other members and were warm and so meaningful. It gave me chills. I want a coin. I want what it means. And I'm stunned (stunned) to find fellowship that gives a damn.
Good work for you. Hope to organize the home soon too. That's impossible with alcohol anywhere in the system, and I haven't mustered the energy yet, but I feel it...
Stay in touch.
Good work for you. Hope to organize the home soon too. That's impossible with alcohol anywhere in the system, and I haven't mustered the energy yet, but I feel it...
Stay in touch.
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