Inpatient, here I come!
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Join Date: Oct 2010
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Inpatient, here I come!
Earlier tonight I made arrangements to go to a 28 day inpatient facility. I had been doing very well in my outpatient treatment, achieving nine months sober. Then I got confident (read crazy)...
I decided I would get drunk once and get back on the wagon. Naturally, that didn't work and I've been a wreck ever since. Everything I've worked for, self-esteem, positive relationships, emotional management, personal responsibility, etc. is all slipping away. As far as I'm concerned, it's time to do something different.
I feel like rehab will be a good opportunity for me to refocus on the skills I've learned to stay sober in an environment I can handle. Currently, I'm not very good at coping with day-to-day life. I guess I'll learn how eventually. Maybe, hopefully, I can find/create some meaning in my life.
Regardless, I'm never going to give up. I'm going to beat this **** and I hope we all can.
I decided I would get drunk once and get back on the wagon. Naturally, that didn't work and I've been a wreck ever since. Everything I've worked for, self-esteem, positive relationships, emotional management, personal responsibility, etc. is all slipping away. As far as I'm concerned, it's time to do something different.
I feel like rehab will be a good opportunity for me to refocus on the skills I've learned to stay sober in an environment I can handle. Currently, I'm not very good at coping with day-to-day life. I guess I'll learn how eventually. Maybe, hopefully, I can find/create some meaning in my life.
Regardless, I'm never going to give up. I'm going to beat this **** and I hope we all can.
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From what you say going to a 28 day rehab would be a good idea but if you didn't have trouble with 9 months of sobriety and have trouble with everyday life then seeing a professional about your underlining disorder that you most likey have would be cheaper and you don't want to worry about future insurance plans you may want in the future. You should only go to rehab as a last strew.
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To me this sounds like a wise decision if the cost of doing this is within your reach. The crucial thing is giving up alcohol and reducing as much as possible the risk that there will ever again be "one last binge". Alcohol, as an addiction, never gives up. It will always be there, waiting for you if you let it back in. And, if you do, you will find that it will be devastating. Recovery is hard work but, with the passing years, you will find true happiness. You will receive the greatest gift of all- yourself. Good luck and all the best!
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Good for you - I think it's a great investment in yourself. I loved inpatient - it gave me undivided time to work on me, without the constant pressures and distractions of day-to-day stuff.
All the best!
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I'm glad you're doing what you have to do to keep moving forward. I'm a little concerned that you want to beat this thing. The proper outlook and attitude is important.
I can't beat this thing. I am not cured of alcoholism. What I really have is a daily reprieve contingent on the maintenance of my spiritual condition. Every day is a day when I must carry the vision of God's will into all of my activities. (AA Big Book, page 85.)
Step one of AA is about surrender. I admitted I have no power over alcohol. I admitted my life is unmanageable. Am I powerless? Of course not. I'm an extremely powerful person. But I have an illness in two parts - an allergy of the body combined with an obsession of the mind. I'm allergic to alcohol. I react abnormally to even a small amount of alcohol. My last drink was a sip from the communion chalice in church. That sip made me want to chug the whole chalice. Non-alcoholics don't react like that.
The obsession of the mind tells me I'm wrong, I made it up, I'm not really an alcoholic, I've been sober a long time so I can drink again now. And on and on. Alcoholism is the only disease that tells you you don't have it.
I had to surrender to get victory. I did, with AA's help. As long as I maintain my spiritual condition, I hope to never drink again.
So help me, God.
My sobriety date is Nov. 27, 1988.
I can't beat this thing. I am not cured of alcoholism. What I really have is a daily reprieve contingent on the maintenance of my spiritual condition. Every day is a day when I must carry the vision of God's will into all of my activities. (AA Big Book, page 85.)
Step one of AA is about surrender. I admitted I have no power over alcohol. I admitted my life is unmanageable. Am I powerless? Of course not. I'm an extremely powerful person. But I have an illness in two parts - an allergy of the body combined with an obsession of the mind. I'm allergic to alcohol. I react abnormally to even a small amount of alcohol. My last drink was a sip from the communion chalice in church. That sip made me want to chug the whole chalice. Non-alcoholics don't react like that.
The obsession of the mind tells me I'm wrong, I made it up, I'm not really an alcoholic, I've been sober a long time so I can drink again now. And on and on. Alcoholism is the only disease that tells you you don't have it.
I had to surrender to get victory. I did, with AA's help. As long as I maintain my spiritual condition, I hope to never drink again.
So help me, God.
My sobriety date is Nov. 27, 1988.
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I appreciate all the support, everyone. I just got off the phone with the facility and I'm expecting a call tomorrow with the details to get me up and running. I'm equally nervous and excited. Yikes!
Fortunately, I got my friends and family on board with me. My parents are a little ambivalent about participating in the family portion of treatment, but I'm not going to worry about it.
hector, I understand what you're saying, and I'm pretty well convinced that there's no returning to drinking at all, social or otherwise. Of all the things I've tried to learn from this wild relapse, my inability to have even a sip is just too much.
I know I've got some hard work ahead of me, but better now than never!
Fortunately, I got my friends and family on board with me. My parents are a little ambivalent about participating in the family portion of treatment, but I'm not going to worry about it.
hector, I understand what you're saying, and I'm pretty well convinced that there's no returning to drinking at all, social or otherwise. Of all the things I've tried to learn from this wild relapse, my inability to have even a sip is just too much.
I know I've got some hard work ahead of me, but better now than never!
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BBB - I applaud you for making this decision.
It is such an incredible investment of time (and money) that it will hopefully give you a very solid beginning.
I drank through two IOPs but when I checked myself to inpatient - it stuck.
Great information there.
All my best,
SPG
It is such an incredible investment of time (and money) that it will hopefully give you a very solid beginning.
I drank through two IOPs but when I checked myself to inpatient - it stuck.
Great information there.
All my best,
SPG
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