Hanging In There Just completed day 27, but man it was another tough one. I've been working midnights, and my sleep schedule is/was all messed up. It got so bad last night, that I even told one of my friends I was going to smoke some weed. I just didn't care. I wanted to do anything to stop the terrible anxiety, depression, and terrible headache I had. BUT..........When the time came to actually follow through with my little plan........I just couldn't do it for some reason. Normally, when I get in that frame of mind, there's very little that can be done to stop me. Once I've got my mind made up that I'm drinking, using, gambling, or sleeping around, there's usually no turning back. I don't know what the heck stopped me, but I can only attribute it to some sort of divine intervention. So instead, I went home, slept for an hour or so, and picked up another 24 hours of sobriety. My headache is gone, but I woke up after an hour or so. So I decided to take a ride downtown in the city I live. Now *that* was a sobering experience. Just seeing the endless insanity going on around there around 1am was enough to thank God endlessly that I didn't "just smoke a joint". Because that sort of chaos and insanity is EXACTLY where I would have ended back up. So I'd just like to take this opportunity to thank all of you at SR, the good people I've met in (and out) of AA, and the God of my understanding. Without all of you, none of this would have been possible. And I surely would not have made it through another rough patch like last night. I owe it all to you. |
I'm really glad whatever the reason Squizz :) D |
Originally Posted by Dee74
(Post 3070584)
I'm really glad whatever the reason Squizz :) D |
Amen on sobriety. Glad you are here and sober today!! |
I'm glad you got through that, Squizz! |
Congratulations Squizz, That was a really difficult decision you made and a very good choice. I'm sure that you are going to make it. Keep up the good work...we are all here with you!:c011: |
Way to go! |
Oddly enough, *this* was my horoscope yesterday: Saturday , Aug 13, 2011 "Restlessness, nervous haste, and rashness can be something of a problem, for you act on impulse and may be out of sync with your environment." |
Congratulations! We don't have to give in to our desires or cravings. They are just temporary feelings that will pass. I'm so glad you decided to stay sober! |
Good for you Squizz. Don't we feel good today? 27 days! Look at that milestone coming up. No need to screw that up. |
Squizz Well done you!!! For some reason Im very bored. I got through 5 days, relapsed and now on day 2. But so bored, I could just fell asleep from this boredom. I was active during the day, but still bored. Will it go away? You are on day 27 tell me please. |
Originally Posted by Healthyfood
(Post 3070967)
Squizz Well done you!!! For some reason Im very bored. I got through 5 days, relapsed and now on day 2. But so bored, I could just fell asleep from this boredom. I was active during the day, but still bored. Will it go away? You are on day 27 tell me please. Hungry, angry, lonely, and tired must be avoided. I certainly was hungry, angry, and tired, that's for sure. I ate, that didn't help. I tried to sleep. Slept for an hour. Sometimes, I guess we just gotta' tough things out. I'll be honest: I had to dig real deep into the tool box to overcome that obstacle last night. But I did, and I'm going to a meeting a few minutes where I know I'll feel better. I always keep telling myself this: "Matt, just tough it out until the next meeting, and make a decision after that." And it seems to be working. Thanks for all the support SR. I truly love and NEED you guys. |
Originally Posted by Missy7
(Post 3070956)
Good for you Squizz. Don't we feel good today? 27 days! Look at that milestone coming up. No need to screw that up. |
It always gets more difficult. You did it! |
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