Hi and Welcome. I understand what you're saying. SO many days I've determined that "today is the day." I read AA literature in the morning, come to this site, and have a good day, until 5:00. Then all my resolve can go down the drain and I'm off to the store for a bottle of wine. I've found that I just HAVE to get out of the house from 5:00 to 6:30-7:00. That can mean going to a meeting, exercise class, whatever. Old habits and patterns die hard so I can't just sit around the house, or start making dinner at 4:30-5:00 or before I know it, I'm back at it - sipping until the bottle is gone and the cycle lives on. I'm still learning how cunning and baffling this disease is. Keep reading this forum - so much wisdom!