MycoolFitz

After 65 daze sober I finally had my first drinking dream last night. Funny how, in my dream, I instantly re-entered the world of sneaking drinks, paranoia, guilt, shame and remorse. I awoke shaken and disquieted, still feeling all the bad feelings, still thinking all the bad thoughts. It took me awhile to appreciate the blessings of this dream. The chance to recall those hungry ghosts that haunted my life before sobriety--without having to experience it in the waking world, the awakened action. The gift of realizing that if I pick up I'll be right back in that level of Hell in a drunker's heartbeat. The dream is fading now as dreams do, I just hold the lesson doesn't fade away as well.

ajangel

I hate those dreams. They seem so real.

SDSurfn

Funny that you posted this today. I'm only Day 15 but I had my first drinking dream last night!

I woke up in the middle of the night, startled, convinced I was drunk. It took me a few seconds to realize I wasn't.

What a relief. For me, alcohol = insanity.

-SD