Struggling at nearly 7 months
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Join Date: Jan 2011
Location: Tasmania
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Struggling at nearly 7 months
Hi everyone,
Been lurking here since last year. Today I thought I'd better stop isolating and introduce myself. I'm a 27 year old uni student from Australia and an alkie and addict. Clean and sober since 1/1/11.
Bit of a struggle today. Had to deal with my doctor who doesn't seem to know much about addiction and doesn't seem to believe me when I tell him what's going on because I dress and speak well and don't appear to be a complete mess - I'm not assuming that, he told me. It really frustrates and angers me. And since I'm having some serious anger managment issues lately... it's a problem. Think I may have to find a new doctor.
Being able to come home and have a read of SR and daily reflections is preferable to stopping at the bottle shop on the way home to remind myself what a hopeless drunk I was. But damn is it ever tempting. It's like I want to get back on it and mess myself up more just so I can show the guy how ...ed up I am out of spite.
The reason I went to see him was to get him to fill out a form for the uni support and equity people so that I can get some extra time on exams etc, because since I got sober my brain doesn't work so well. And he was hesitant because he thought it was unfair to the other students. In principle I agree, but that's for the uni to decide, not him.
I wish I had more meetings where I live but I have to wait till thursday assuming I can get a lift. Most of the AA's around here are older men who have been sober for 20+ years and are mostly talk. There's a S.M.A.R.T. meeting tomorrow according to the website and they do pickup, so I think I'll give them a ring in the morning.
I'm going to go to an online meeting tonight. The last one I went to I got whinged at because some of them couldn't hear me, as though their volume control is my problem. I'm glad I can laugh at stuff like that but damn, it gets old fast.
Anyway, just needed to share. Thanks for reading my rant.
Been lurking here since last year. Today I thought I'd better stop isolating and introduce myself. I'm a 27 year old uni student from Australia and an alkie and addict. Clean and sober since 1/1/11.
Bit of a struggle today. Had to deal with my doctor who doesn't seem to know much about addiction and doesn't seem to believe me when I tell him what's going on because I dress and speak well and don't appear to be a complete mess - I'm not assuming that, he told me. It really frustrates and angers me. And since I'm having some serious anger managment issues lately... it's a problem. Think I may have to find a new doctor.
Being able to come home and have a read of SR and daily reflections is preferable to stopping at the bottle shop on the way home to remind myself what a hopeless drunk I was. But damn is it ever tempting. It's like I want to get back on it and mess myself up more just so I can show the guy how ...ed up I am out of spite.
The reason I went to see him was to get him to fill out a form for the uni support and equity people so that I can get some extra time on exams etc, because since I got sober my brain doesn't work so well. And he was hesitant because he thought it was unfair to the other students. In principle I agree, but that's for the uni to decide, not him.
I wish I had more meetings where I live but I have to wait till thursday assuming I can get a lift. Most of the AA's around here are older men who have been sober for 20+ years and are mostly talk. There's a S.M.A.R.T. meeting tomorrow according to the website and they do pickup, so I think I'll give them a ring in the morning.
I'm going to go to an online meeting tonight. The last one I went to I got whinged at because some of them couldn't hear me, as though their volume control is my problem. I'm glad I can laugh at stuff like that but damn, it gets old fast.
Anyway, just needed to share. Thanks for reading my rant.
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Join Date: Apr 2009
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Welcome to SR Spinosus. Glad you are here! You will find a lot of support here.
There are many avenues of recovery. I am in AA. I hope you find one that fits you.
Thanks for posting.
There are many avenues of recovery. I am in AA. I hope you find one that fits you.
Thanks for posting.
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
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Hi Spinosus 
Good to have another Aussie here
I need to have a Dr who at least tries to understand me and my problems and is prepared to give creedence to my concerns.
Sounds like maybe looking around for a new Dr is a good idea?
I know you'll find a lot of support here - welcome
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Good to have another Aussie here
I need to have a Dr who at least tries to understand me and my problems and is prepared to give creedence to my concerns.
Sounds like maybe looking around for a new Dr is a good idea?
I know you'll find a lot of support here - welcome
D
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Welcome to SR Spinosus!
SR is a vibrant and supportive community cyber community. I found being here is a good way to practice new heather behaviors as well as thinking.
I myself found the S.M.A.R.T. recovery tools, along with my unwavering commitment to remain sober, has helped me the most.
SR is a vibrant and supportive community cyber community. I found being here is a good way to practice new heather behaviors as well as thinking.
I myself found the S.M.A.R.T. recovery tools, along with my unwavering commitment to remain sober, has helped me the most.
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Join Date: Nov 2010
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Welcome Spinosus. Good that you didn't let that incident send you back to drinking. I find it so sad that people have to be a complete mess in public before it is considered a problem. Thankfully, we have SR.
I followed a path similiar to Zencat.
Good for you for reaching out and taking action.
I followed a path similiar to Zencat.
Originally Posted by Zencat 
I myself found the S.M.A.R.T. recovery tools, along with my unwavering commitment to remain sober, has helped me the most.
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