I'm new also
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I'm new also
I am driven by desperation to post here. I keep sabotaging myself by talking about myself too much to people at work and then feeling totally ashamed. This happened yesterday, and then I lied and told the person
who I revealed too much to that "I told someone something and it got back to me". Now I have to deal with that mess along with all the negative feelings. I need help please.
I should add that I haven't had any alcohol since October 15, 1997 but there's so much more than that.
who I revealed too much to that "I told someone something and it got back to me". Now I have to deal with that mess along with all the negative feelings. I need help please. I should add that I haven't had any alcohol since October 15, 1997 but there's so much more than that.
Last edited by tuliptree; 07-20-2011 at 07:55 AM. Reason: add more detail
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Welcome to SR!! Sounds like you may still have some of the feelings that got us into addiction/alcoholism in the first place. When I first got here, it was because I was wanting to learn about recovery, had 6 months clean. I found the friends & family forum, and realized I had some serious issues with codependency, self-sabotage is something I still have to work on, 4 years into recovery. It's been hard for me to accept myself, feel that I'm "good enough" and when things are going good, in the past, I'd always sabotaged myself right back into a crisis. It's like I was not only a drug addict, but was addicted to the drama and proving that I wasn't good enough. Just something to think about.
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
Hugs and prayers,
Amy
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