dead inside
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Join Date: Jul 2011
Location: Columbus Ohio
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dead inside
Hello, my name is Scott, and I am powerless over everything it seems...I am an alcoholic and drug addict, I am 44 years old but feel 80 a lot of the time...I just found this web site a few minutes ago. I have been reading on here what others have posted. I know I am not alone, but feel like I am most of the time. I wish I did not have this disease of addiction...along with mental health issues and have been diagnosed with bi-polar, conduct disorder (as a kid), anti-social personality disorder, and borderline personality disorder. I am also gay and a disabled veteran. I hope I can stay sober today...too afraid to go to a meeting right now.
Earth Child
Join Date: Mar 2011
Location: Edinburgh, Scotland
Posts: 2,004
Welcome Scottybear
Well done joining here you have come to the right place
there are meetings here at night i think everyday ( not 100 % sure of that )
I know how hard it is to go to a meeting.
Be kind to yourself take it slowly at your own passe
I myself am a drug addict and alcoholic i know how hard it is
i also have mental health problems myself do you have a psych that you can talk to about you becoming sober they might have some ideas to help you with.
My first meeting was scary because i had exceptions of what it was all about i though everyone there would be drunk/ or high but they werent they were kind and welcoming.
am sure people with be the same to you when you go to a meeting
but as i said take your time
you have support here
Ella
Well done joining here you have come to the right place
there are meetings here at night i think everyday ( not 100 % sure of that )
I know how hard it is to go to a meeting.
Be kind to yourself take it slowly at your own passe
I myself am a drug addict and alcoholic i know how hard it is
i also have mental health problems myself do you have a psych that you can talk to about you becoming sober they might have some ideas to help you with.
My first meeting was scary because i had exceptions of what it was all about i though everyone there would be drunk/ or high but they werent they were kind and welcoming.
am sure people with be the same to you when you go to a meeting
but as i said take your time
you have support here
Ella
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Join Date: Jul 2011
Location: Columbus Ohio
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Thank you for the reply, I am seeing a doc at my VA clinic here in Columbus...I have been since 2007 and before that in Dayton Ohio, where I am from...I know to use on my meds does not make for good results, I hate my meds...
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Join Date: Jul 2011
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Latte...I have been to Coos Bay Oregon...it is so beautiful there. I lived in Portland for a while doing some work there back in 1995...lived in corporate housing in Lake Oswego...some aprtment complex, I can not remember the name...loved a restaurant named Chevy's...
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Join Date: Jul 2011
Location: great lakes
Posts: 101
Welcome, Scott.
You have more than your share of life's challenges for sure. I encourage you to seek out other community mental health services in addition to va. A 2nd opinion never hurts. Meds. can be adjusted.
Good luck, man!
You have more than your share of life's challenges for sure. I encourage you to seek out other community mental health services in addition to va. A 2nd opinion never hurts. Meds. can be adjusted.
Good luck, man!
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Join Date: Nov 2010
Location: Massachusetts
Posts: 284
Welcome Scotty. You're much more than a collection of labels and diagnoses. It's amazing how much better all around your head gets when you stop poisoning your brain with drugs and alcohol. I have 9 months thanks to this site.
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Join Date: May 2011
Location: New Orleans
Posts: 58
Hi, Scott! Keep talking, keep posting -- I have found there is a lot of wisdom in these forums, and that everyone here can be a real source of strength and feeling "a part of." Like Latte said, you are NOT alone. I am in early sobriety and as confused as one person can possibly be, but I just keep moving forward as best I can. Hang with us!
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Join Date: May 2007
Location: Sweden
Posts: 1,649
WELCOME!!!!!!!
We have all been where you are at. Afraid of everything. You will find many friends here and an incredible amount of support. The best advice I got when I came here was: do you have a plan? I never thought about that. I never thought that I could formulate a plan for recovery. It was that little ray of hope I needed to step out of the darkness into the light.
The terrific mods here like Dee and Anna and Carol have been my lighthouse guides.
Please keep coming back.
We have all been where you are at. Afraid of everything. You will find many friends here and an incredible amount of support. The best advice I got when I came here was: do you have a plan? I never thought about that. I never thought that I could formulate a plan for recovery. It was that little ray of hope I needed to step out of the darkness into the light.
The terrific mods here like Dee and Anna and Carol have been my lighthouse guides.
Please keep coming back.
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 211,427
Welcome Scott 
You really are among friends here - you'll find a lot of understanding and support.
I've often felt crippled by fear - I know the solution now is to reach out, to get contact with people, to make some positive action, even tho that maybe the last thing I want to do.
I hope you'll think about reaching out here, and in real life too.
We can change our situation
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You really are among friends here - you'll find a lot of understanding and support.
I've often felt crippled by fear - I know the solution now is to reach out, to get contact with people, to make some positive action, even tho that maybe the last thing I want to do.
I hope you'll think about reaching out here, and in real life too.
We can change our situation
D
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