coming_clean

lust, women, sex,

no i'm not watching 24/7 porn or something.

but i'm a young healthy male,
in early sobriety,
and my body aches for it,

however,
I put yesterdat a stop to the for the most part sexual relationship (plus a lot of drama) with a girl. I met this girl while I was breaking up with my ex-gf whom I was with for two years.

I need to be alone for a while altough my ego is trying me to convince otherwise LOL.

This sexual relationship, was a pitfall, she smokes cigarettes, and does coke every once in a while. I CAN handle it, been around her for a few times when she does that stuff, while I remained sober with easy, not to brag.

But.....why play with matches if you're made of gasoline

flirting, oke
dating or plain sex. not for a while. First it's ME time.
And that has it's advantages, I can work out even more, i can watch crappy movies like bloodsport, rambo, terminator, transformers..read comic books, stuff that I love lol.

I'm gonna be a macho man for a while. A MAN man know what I mean
lovin' it.

Plus, it's a great buddhist training to learn how to accept lust in a natural, healthy way. without supressing it, or surrendering to it.

Ranger

Awesome job, CC. Thanks, Friend, for sharing and for your example.

LayLadyLay

WORD!!!!

Way to put a positive spin on what some people would see as a challenging obstacle! Best of luck with re-channeling those energies towards something else that's fulfilling to you.

Then, you'll be in an awesome place to be a great boyfriend when the time is right!

coming_clean

thank you friends,

sobervic

Haha, I can relate. I remember being a teen who did nothing but surf the Internet, participate in hobbies, and read nerdy books. I wished I could be the party-hard drinker who had sex every night.

Now, I drink myself to oblivion on a regular basis, have unsafe sex with random girls who I don't care about, and wish I could just go back to being what I was before.