I Keep Failing
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Join Date: Jun 2011
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I Keep Failing
I am sitting at home right now (hoorah for my safety) absolutely d*mn drunk. I feel like I can't stop this :/ I want to be one of those party people who only drink 1-2 beers and are wild even though they are wild and fun before they ever picked up a single beer. I jusr drank a pint of vodka in 4 hours and I feel I need more. I won't get more because I refuse to drink and drive but it is how I feel.
I want to, tomorrow, get more vodka than I did today.
F me, how do I get over this?
I feel like I can't. My Christian mother preaches the a*hole fake bible to me so I have to ignore her. Old friends try to be supportive but they'd kick my butt out at a party.
D*mn. Why can I not just be NORMAL for once?
I want to, tomorrow, get more vodka than I did today.
F me, how do I get over this?
I feel like I can't. My Christian mother preaches the a*hole fake bible to me so I have to ignore her. Old friends try to be supportive but they'd kick my butt out at a party.D*mn. Why can I not just be NORMAL for once?
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 211,372
Hi Liz
I kept failing too - I desperately wanted to be one of those normal drinkers too...I tried for 20 years.
Like it or not, alcohol and I do not mix well.
Fair or not, I'm not a normal drinker.
I had to accept that.
You can get over this. It takes work and commitment, but you absolutely can.
It was the best decision I ever made
Support helped me a lot - have you been using any support besides SR?
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I kept failing too - I desperately wanted to be one of those normal drinkers too...I tried for 20 years.
Like it or not, alcohol and I do not mix well.
Fair or not, I'm not a normal drinker.
I had to accept that.
You can get over this. It takes work and commitment, but you absolutely can.
It was the best decision I ever made
Support helped me a lot - have you been using any support besides SR?
D
...than never
Join Date: May 2010
Location: West Coast USA
Posts: 152
Actually, you are "normal". It's just that your normal probably doesn't include alcohol.
You've come to the right place. After numerous tries, I am now at 229 days alcohol free and my life has improved immeasurably. This site has been indispensable during that time.
You've come to the right place. After numerous tries, I am now at 229 days alcohol free and my life has improved immeasurably. This site has been indispensable during that time.
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Join Date: Dec 2010
Location: San Diego
Posts: 4,451
Hi, Liz.
I spent years trying to just have one or two. Worked sometimes, but it was no fun. Most of time I just kept on drinking.
I finally gave up the dream of moderating, and accepted I could not drink at all. Six months later, I'm really glad I did!
I spent years trying to just have one or two. Worked sometimes, but it was no fun. Most of time I just kept on drinking.
I finally gave up the dream of moderating, and accepted I could not drink at all. Six months later, I'm really glad I did!
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Join Date: Jun 2011
Location: Coffs Nsw
Posts: 80
You handle it with support and not buying the vodka tomorrow... I was where u are..I wanted to be sober but wanted to drink... I literally had to tell the wanting to drink voice to 'shut the **** up' I said it out loud, at times i yelled it, at times I just said it to myself, Ive even sung it... hang in there...u can make it
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