Hey Now ... a Return Visit
 

Lost my way. Powerless. It is the first day for two weeks that I haven't had a drink before 10 in the morning. All the usual tricks are in play. I'm sat at my desk at work with a 'water bottle' filled with my poison of choice Vodka. I have the shakes and a feeling of panic. All classic 'signs' I know. I am tired of this hopelessness and I am planning on detoxing again. I know I can do it, I have done it before. I know what the trigger is and am working on removing it. Thank you for the inspiration you all provide and grabbing me under my arms.

You can do this hold.

"Planning on detoxing"... hmmm. Just go, man. You can plan forever.

Take care,
TB

I understand holdfold, Don't drink at my job but I wanted to at times. The powerlessness can send you into some very bad places. I just started too and it was rough night last night but it's time. Good luck. you can do this and so can I! Vodka is my poison as well.

Are you not drinking now or have vodka? I'm confused. If you aren't drinking -good start and keep going...if you are, then trash the vodka!

No, I am ... I can see the wagon pulling off into the distance

Ugh, I remember drinks in "the water bottle" those are not good days or memories at all, please get yourself to the doctor and get some help with detoxing. You don't have to go through this everyday, make the change today.