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Hello.

I am here 4 days sober after drinking literally non-stop for almost three years. My dad died, my anxiety was horrible.... long story short whenever ANYTHING went wrong, i would have at least a sip. By the end I was drinking sometimes a pint of vodka, plus a shot, plus three glasses of wine a day. I am 26 years old. I have an amazing Husband.

I would on some days literally drink from morning to night. It was a two-fold affect for me: I would be tipsy AND my appetite would go away. I would drink before, during and after work. I would drink at home, sometimes would drive after a drink or two because I couldn't really feel it.

I truly believed that alcohol made me a better person because i am a loner, socially shy/awkward and introverted. Because I have anxiety and bouts of depression. Because it hindered my appetite so i stayed thinner. What's better than someone who is skinny and happy and outgoing RIGHT?? WRONG.

It almost ruined my husband's trust in me. I said things and acted in ways i regret. I threw up, passed out, blacked out, got dizzy, forgot things, got angry and physical, screamed and yelled and became a total monster. i stopped caring about anything else. Stopped baking and working out and cooking and playing. Stopped caring about God.

I have never stopped for more than a week or two. I will now. Life is too short as it is.


thanks for letting me vent

Vent?? U told alot of my story ... Im proud of ur 4 days... I just want to do one... great work mate.. U can do this.. get a strong support system with u if u can

I can totally relate. I have lived an almost identical cycle for the past 3 years. I'm only 9 days in, but after my first entire weekend of not drinking, I can say I'm feeling like a better person and wife already. I too, had no appetite while drinking and lost a lot of weight but it's not the right way to do it and my health may be suffering as a consequence. (we'll see after I visit the Dr in 2 weeks).

Good for you for posting and taking the step. I have had immense support in a short time here - and you will have it too!!! Glad you are here!

Welcome to SR.

Congrats on 4 days.

Welcome to SR magdalena :)

I can identify with the way you drank. Drinking was central to my life too.

Detox can sometimes be a little rough for some of us, so please consider seeing your doctor as a first port of call, just to be safe.

You'll find a lot of help support and hope here. Good to have you with us! :)

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Okay so you are ready? Time to put one foot in front of the other again. Learn to walk. You made a great first step by coming here. Keep it going.

Welcome to SR! Congrats on your 4 days :c011:

I'm so glad to hear that you're ready to quit!! When I was reading about you and your husband, I thought "That is me!!" I have exactly the same history-- man, what my husband has been through with me! The important thing is that we change things from now on! :) I wish you all the best in your recovery!

Congrats Madalena! I could have written your post myself! The great thing about getting sober is you can reclaim your life again. Look in the mirror and be proud of yourself.

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Best Wishes To You!

Welcome to the family. I was a wino but I only drank when I was awake....;) Kind of like having an alcohol IV in my arm all day long...:( Gave it up for good (finally!) 18 months ago and am a better happier person all round.:) I hope we can be of help to you.:hug:

Welcome! What is your plan to stay sober? Quitting drinking is just part of it, many of us need to make other changes in order to stay sober.

Welcome! I'm so glad you are here.

Welcome! Your drinking sounds a lot like mine--I just did it longer. I used it as a weight-control aid, too. Horrible nutritionally--most alcoholics (even the overweight ones) tend to be malnourished. I found it SUCH a relief to just put the drinking behind me. Nothing but good things ahead for those that do.

Do you have a plan for staying sober? I find AA to be a great way to live.

Welcome.

Welcome to SR Magdalena!

Congrats on 4 days:)