2 weeks!
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2 weeks!
Today marks 2 weeks of sobriety for me (yesterday was the 2 week "anniversary" of the suicide attempt that got me into recovery)! This, I think, is maybe the first time I've really, truly tried in earnest to get and STAY sober...all of the other times, in the back of my mind, I knew I would use again once things "settled down" or whatever my excuse was.
You see, I tended to "quit" when the consequences started becoming really apparent and I started to feel as though I was a "bad person" and the consequences were some kind of karmic retribution or something. I was getting what I deserved (in a sense I was, I just didn't see that it was the USING that created the consequences, NOT the fact that using made me "bad" or whatever) so if I quit, things would start to go well again. Which, naturally, they did - but not because I was "being good" but because I was sober and functional and not creating problems for myself!
You see, I tended to "quit" when the consequences started becoming really apparent and I started to feel as though I was a "bad person" and the consequences were some kind of karmic retribution or something. I was getting what I deserved (in a sense I was, I just didn't see that it was the USING that created the consequences, NOT the fact that using made me "bad" or whatever) so if I quit, things would start to go well again. Which, naturally, they did - but not because I was "being good" but because I was sober and functional and not creating problems for myself!
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