Want too quit, finally reaching out.
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Want too quit, finally reaching out.
Hey everyone,
About a year ago I began to abuse opiates. Today I'm living with the consequences of my actions, but have been trying to get clean for about 7 months. I have never reached out to others in the past and felt like SR would be a good place to post on while I overcome this addiction.
I am very exhausted and depressed. I have not been able to get over the feeling of cold radiating within my chest.
I have had a crazy and eventful life so far and I am not proud of most of it. I was at one point a professional video game player but gave it up after losing interest in gaming for the most part.
At heart I am an artist and want to be a musician. I have played guitar for several years now but have seen my ability to write music degrade over the course of my addiction. I believe what I want in life is to be able to write music, and express myself clearly.
It is now day 1 for me, and I hope that I never have to repeat day 1 again. I have lost all my money, most of my friends, and my girlfriend due to this problem. I don't want to lose my love for music.
I have found an NA meeting nearby where I live that I will be attending tomorrow. Wish me luck, I am scared but even as an atheist I know that they won't pummel god in to my head. I am ready for the NA meetings. I have gotten high one too many times one, and just can't seem to fight the withdrawal om my own.
Thanks,
TheGamer
About a year ago I began to abuse opiates. Today I'm living with the consequences of my actions, but have been trying to get clean for about 7 months. I have never reached out to others in the past and felt like SR would be a good place to post on while I overcome this addiction.
I am very exhausted and depressed. I have not been able to get over the feeling of cold radiating within my chest.
I have had a crazy and eventful life so far and I am not proud of most of it. I was at one point a professional video game player but gave it up after losing interest in gaming for the most part.
At heart I am an artist and want to be a musician. I have played guitar for several years now but have seen my ability to write music degrade over the course of my addiction. I believe what I want in life is to be able to write music, and express myself clearly.
It is now day 1 for me, and I hope that I never have to repeat day 1 again. I have lost all my money, most of my friends, and my girlfriend due to this problem. I don't want to lose my love for music.
I have found an NA meeting nearby where I live that I will be attending tomorrow. Wish me luck, I am scared but even as an atheist I know that they won't pummel god in to my head. I am ready for the NA meetings. I have gotten high one too many times one, and just can't seem to fight the withdrawal om my own.
Thanks,
TheGamer
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