Wasted 4 29 yrs. Trying soberity 1 time
Hi Dylan, welcome and hang in there!! Its never too late, I drank for over 30 years and I just turned 50. Day 90 for me...one day at a time!!! It gets better, and it helped me a lot to read the other posts. Lots of support here!!!
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Day 10
Well not a whole lot to say today.
I grilled a delmonico steak and half slab of ribs, sauteed green beans and curry vegatable fried rice for dinner.
Worried about the weekend going to my fathers house where there is always drinking , have not told anyone I quite yet, not sure what to do ?
Made it to double digits hate to ruin it
Thats it for now be back later!
Peace, Dylan
I grilled a delmonico steak and half slab of ribs, sauteed green beans and curry vegatable fried rice for dinner.
Worried about the weekend going to my fathers house where there is always drinking , have not told anyone I quite yet, not sure what to do ?
Made it to double digits hate to ruin it
Thats it for now be back later!
Peace, Dylan
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Day 12
I skipped yesterday, posting that is
It seems so quite on SR in the last couple days, not what i need at this time!!!
Hope everyone has a nice holiday, and safe , and love to all our troops,.
Funny I talk with a long time friend yesterday and he is now in AA for awhile, he is very comfortring and just kind. One day I be able to say I have been sober for months and years I hope if I live that long .
Peace, Dylan
It seems so quite on SR in the last couple days, not what i need at this time!!!
Hope everyone has a nice holiday, and safe , and love to all our troops,.
Funny I talk with a long time friend yesterday and he is now in AA for awhile, he is very comfortring and just kind. One day I be able to say I have been sober for months and years I hope if I live that long .
Peace, Dylan
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Holiday weekends are usually a slow time for SR...
I'm pleased you are continueing to move forward because it's been so interesting and beneficial for me.....
I'm pleased you are continueing to move forward because it's been so interesting and beneficial for me.....
Hi Dylan! Congrats on quitting. All your talk on food is making me really hungry.
You're really doing a great job, I hope you feel proud! Make sure to treat yourself to something special! Although being sober after so many years of drinking must feel like a pretty good reward in itself.
You're really doing a great job, I hope you feel proud! Make sure to treat yourself to something special! Although being sober after so many years of drinking must feel like a pretty good reward in itself.
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Hey Dylan,
Just reading your thread. Great to see you hangin in there.
SR saved my *ss when i found this place last April (of 2010 )
Just reading about your first week brought back memories of mine !?!
Big Dylan fan here. One of my earliest "signatures" was a lyric from his I Shall Be Released
I see my light come shining
From the West unto the East
Any day now,
Any day now
I shall be released
Glad you're eating healthy. That helped me early on too.
How did everything go at your Dad's ? ....or you headed over Mon ?
My oldest friend from HS just left a few hours ago , after coming down from ATL for a couple days. we used to have a real drunk fest on his visits, but this am i was so damn grateful not to be nursing a wicked hangover.
Just seeing his bloodshot eyes and listening to him whispering this am ( as if it hurt his head just to hear is own damn voice)....... just brought it all back.
You hang in there , I can tell ya, life gets better and better, .....
Keep the Faith
Just reading your thread. Great to see you hangin in there.
SR saved my *ss when i found this place last April (of 2010 )
Just reading about your first week brought back memories of mine !?!
Big Dylan fan here. One of my earliest "signatures" was a lyric from his I Shall Be Released
I see my light come shining
From the West unto the East
Any day now,
Any day now
I shall be released
Glad you're eating healthy. That helped me early on too.
How did everything go at your Dad's ? ....or you headed over Mon ?
My oldest friend from HS just left a few hours ago , after coming down from ATL for a couple days. we used to have a real drunk fest on his visits, but this am i was so damn grateful not to be nursing a wicked hangover.
Just seeing his bloodshot eyes and listening to him whispering this am ( as if it hurt his head just to hear is own damn voice)....... just brought it all back.
You hang in there , I can tell ya, life gets better and better, .....
Keep the Faith
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Hey all .
I am back my monitor went down , an also life without party tools are way tough,. I dont know anything about being sober , boy I do know everything else.
Good love to all
peace Dylan
I am back my monitor went down , an also life without party tools are way tough,. I dont know anything about being sober , boy I do know everything else.
Good love to all
peace Dylan
Glad you're back
The more I stuck at sober life, the more sober tools I gathered to replace the party tools Dylan
and the sober tools work, and keep on working....they have a lifetime guarantee!
D
The more I stuck at sober life, the more sober tools I gathered to replace the party tools Dylan
and the sober tools work, and keep on working....they have a lifetime guarantee!
D
Dylan,
The first few months are tough for all, but from week two as you will be seeing you will be thinking and feeling much better. There lies the rub. THe thinking usually goes that hey I am feeling great! I can now with a clear mind drink and control it, or I can drink normally now. In the first months for me, and I am older than you and drank as long, life threw me some heavy curves in my first two months of sobriety. I did a cost benefit analysis for me each time. Will drinking make me better able to handle the funeral or support family? Or will it just disable me, quite possibly worse than ever before?
That was a no brainer right? It was horrible sober, and would have been even worse if drinking. And I would have only delayed dealing with it, and possibly made it worse for others.
Life doesn't get any easier. Being sober does.
I just found your posts today. Boy did it bring back my first months! I read every word and then thought Oh no! Please don't see that Dylan went back to it and relapsed!
Man I am glad you are still hangin.
Let me give you some bad self thoughts I had and my answers to myself.
ITM = I told Myself.
Ans. = I answered myself
ITM: I will miss the relaxation I used to get buzzed.
Ans.: Yeah it was great to get the twirlies and puke regularly.
ITM: I am not as fun to be around and am missing out on having fun. Being sober is boring. (Or the alternative when I am sober I am boring)
Ans.: Ya dummy, go listen to some drunk people sober! They are worse than boring and so were you. Then go listen to those same people sober, they are still boring.
Ipso facto if I am boring sober, then I am even more so drinking. And if I am bored sober, I am even more bored if I have to drink to drown that out.
ITM: MY friends will notice and try to get me to drink.
Ans.: I will make a deal with each. I will tell them I don't like alcohol anymore. If they persist then I will tell them that I won't tell them to drink only non alcoholic drinks if they stop telling me what I should be drinking.
ITM: Oh man I will end up being the designated driver for my friends.
Ans.: Oh man I will have to drop some people I only thought were my friends.
ITM: Maybe I am over it now that I have (Insert time sober here) and I can control it now.
Ans.: If that were true then why did the words quit and detox come into play before?
ITM: Once I am recovered I can drink socially and fit in again.
Ans.: See the previous you dummy! ( I am talking to me.)
ITM: Hey I really like sobriety, and never drinking again is easy for a sober guy like me.
Ans.: Yeah now you got it, just don't get cocky and start the delusional desire to drink normally as you know you can't. You also can't hold your breath for 30 minutes and live . . . so what? I don't want to test that just once either, I might not come back from it.
Sorry for the long post. But your series of posts just made my day, and I have 9 months almost. I wasn't struggling, but reminiscing the obstacles I overcame that you are overcoming as well.
I think more than the drinking, those of us who make it have more in common as we went through every temptation and painful physical change too. They are the same for each of us.
And you have no idea of the many who read here daily and are behind you who are now looking to you for inspiration, and getting it. Keep writing sober.
The first few months are tough for all, but from week two as you will be seeing you will be thinking and feeling much better. There lies the rub. THe thinking usually goes that hey I am feeling great! I can now with a clear mind drink and control it, or I can drink normally now. In the first months for me, and I am older than you and drank as long, life threw me some heavy curves in my first two months of sobriety. I did a cost benefit analysis for me each time. Will drinking make me better able to handle the funeral or support family? Or will it just disable me, quite possibly worse than ever before?
That was a no brainer right? It was horrible sober, and would have been even worse if drinking. And I would have only delayed dealing with it, and possibly made it worse for others.
Life doesn't get any easier. Being sober does.
I just found your posts today. Boy did it bring back my first months! I read every word and then thought Oh no! Please don't see that Dylan went back to it and relapsed!
Man I am glad you are still hangin.
Let me give you some bad self thoughts I had and my answers to myself.
ITM = I told Myself.
Ans. = I answered myself
ITM: I will miss the relaxation I used to get buzzed.
Ans.: Yeah it was great to get the twirlies and puke regularly.
ITM: I am not as fun to be around and am missing out on having fun. Being sober is boring. (Or the alternative when I am sober I am boring)
Ans.: Ya dummy, go listen to some drunk people sober! They are worse than boring and so were you. Then go listen to those same people sober, they are still boring.
Ipso facto if I am boring sober, then I am even more so drinking. And if I am bored sober, I am even more bored if I have to drink to drown that out.
ITM: MY friends will notice and try to get me to drink.
Ans.: I will make a deal with each. I will tell them I don't like alcohol anymore. If they persist then I will tell them that I won't tell them to drink only non alcoholic drinks if they stop telling me what I should be drinking.
ITM: Oh man I will end up being the designated driver for my friends.
Ans.: Oh man I will have to drop some people I only thought were my friends.
ITM: Maybe I am over it now that I have (Insert time sober here) and I can control it now.
Ans.: If that were true then why did the words quit and detox come into play before?
ITM: Once I am recovered I can drink socially and fit in again.
Ans.: See the previous you dummy! ( I am talking to me.)
ITM: Hey I really like sobriety, and never drinking again is easy for a sober guy like me.
Ans.: Yeah now you got it, just don't get cocky and start the delusional desire to drink normally as you know you can't. You also can't hold your breath for 30 minutes and live . . . so what? I don't want to test that just once either, I might not come back from it.
Sorry for the long post. But your series of posts just made my day, and I have 9 months almost. I wasn't struggling, but reminiscing the obstacles I overcame that you are overcoming as well.
I think more than the drinking, those of us who make it have more in common as we went through every temptation and painful physical change too. They are the same for each of us.
And you have no idea of the many who read here daily and are behind you who are now looking to you for inspiration, and getting it. Keep writing sober.
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Hello! I have not read this whole thread yet, but wanted to stay part of it. Will read it gradually. I am so happy you are helping me go through this and so happy for you that you are sober! And so happy that my journey can help you with yours.
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