Lipitor

Im back . Thank you . I poignant reminder was last night.

What a horrible place to be in .

Thanks again. I have forgiven myself.

L

Lipitor

Thank you . I woke this morning with remorse, guilt and that horrible piece of invisible 4 x 2 hardwood in my hand that I beat myself on the head with .


I wanted to cancel my account on SR earlier.

Thank you...

Im glad to be back

L

Lipitor

Im not one for normally being over emotional . But. Your post above brought tears to my eyes. Actually more than just a few.

All I can say with humility is ,

THANK YOU . Your post really has made my day and for the first time after drinking , I am feeling ok about getting back on track.

Well done yourself to my friend. 17 days. Excellent .


How fragile I feel this morning. One bottle of wine. My goodness. I used to drink a bottle of vodka and nearly 2 bottles of wine in one night.


Thanks so much for your post. It lifted my spirits, and shows empathy and forgiveness and above all, Understanding.


thank you again

L

michelle01

Good luck Lip. When I decided to take recovery seriously, it had to be my first priority, no matter what, during some difficult decisions of if/or. I just couldn't 'bargain' anymore though I think we all go through that phase. We get all manner of tests thrown at us in sobriety.

It may take time but things in life have a tendency to sort themselves out when you are sober. It may not be what you originally planned but as we grow and learn in recovery the poles can shift. Drinking only further messed things up for me in the long run.

Don't feel bad, we've all been there, glad to see you back, that's what counts - that you're willing to give it another go.

MsCooterBrown

I am glad you are back..Some people cancel their account or fade to silence and we never know what happened to them! I hate it when that happens...and we have all grown very fond of you!! Don't leave us.
And..it is your girlfriends loss. It is hard to understand especially when you say she only has a drink or two..but yeah she showed her true colors by not being supportive. You deserve to be loved for the true you. And we do all learn from each other..lift each other back up when down. Stick around Mister!

LaFemme

I'm glad to see you are back and sober. I'm sorry for the pain you are going through.

Xoxo,

Tina

Fandy

OK, explain please...what is a push-bike???? like a regular bicycle???? or pushing a bike uphill?

sorry for my ignorance...buti've never heard this term...and why am i pondering it at 4:10AM i my time zone?

itsaboutime

Yeah, a pushbike is a regular bike. I also cycle and find it really good for keeping myself busy when I'd otherwise be pondering alcohol.

At the start, I found it good just to clear the head and get rid of the alcohol thoughts.... now I've reached a level where I could go for a 4 hour cycle so rather that using cycling to avoid alcohol thoughts, it actually becomes part of my plans for Sunday afternoons.

I've also joined a cycling club which gives me an added excuse for friends that ask me to drink - sorry, I can't, I've a race tomorrow!!!!

SomethingBetter

hey Lip, im sorry you went through that, i know the feelings it stirs up, i have relapsed many times, but right now i cant do anything about the past, there part of us now and all we can do is keep on keeping on.

Im glad you came here and posted instead of going for another bottle, that took a lot of strength.

Pumpkin Soup

So happy to see you have bounced back on here

crittery

What an awful excuse to leave someone. But now you have the chance to go out and meet better people. A blessing in disguise, perhaps?

californiapoppy

Many of us have been where you've been. I've never cancelled my account on SR but I have had long absences, including absences when I wasn't drinking and I was feeling fine. I think you can consider SR as a good friend, who understands you well, who can understand and accept when you need a shoulder and who can understand and accept when you need breathing room.

Lipitor

Thank you so much.

You know , that is exactly what I was going to do .

Cancel my account and , just never come back.

Im looking forward to a much better life, and not interested in running away any more.

Thanks again .

L

Mark75

Glad to see you back today Lipitor.

Lipitor

Thank you .

The slip up taught me alot . I realised how easy it is to get out of control.

Goodness me , I lived like that "all the time"

Thanks again for the kind wishes mate.

L

aussieblue

Glad you decided to stay.

SSIL75

So glad you're back and sober!

Belier

Very Happy your back Lipitor,

Lipitor

Hello friends.

I am overwhelmed by your respones.

This is the "first" time in my life that I have not been ridiculed for stuffing up.

I see now that this forum is a good place to be for me.

I really appreciate every kind word posted, and the thoughtful private messages also.

Thank you kindly

L

Fandy

we are here for you and you are here for us...Life will be GOOD!