marcia36

I posted not too long ago about my first AA meeting. It was many things: scary, emotional, intense. I did not talk to anyone and left almost feeling worse than when I got in there. I cried a good part of the night and vowed to do better on my own so I didn't have to go back.
Fast forward to last night, where I was googling moderate drinking, moderation management, ANYTHING that was going to tell me it was okay to drink. I knew I had to get my butt back into that meeting. I prayed that I would at least find some solace there. I was terrified to go but knew I needed to fight this addiciton.
The meeting was totally different this time. I went a little early and ended up talking with an older gentleman who asked if I would sit with him throughout the meeting. I actually raised my hand and said I was a newcomer when they asked. I really listened to the stories, and when it was my turn, I truthfully told mine. After the meeting, a girl about my age (late 20s) came up to me. She was beautiful, a college graduate, a professional. She had been sober 4 years. LIstening to the parallels in her story and mine, I felt as if she had been sent to me to show me that there are people, just like me, who are wrestling with the same demons. And they aren't all on the side of the road, homeless drunks. They drink good wine, good scotch. We are all in the same boat here.
I wanted to post because I want everyone to know my experience. I have been sober 5 months on my own. You can do it. But if you start feeling like you can't do it, there is a group of people that are willing to support you in your journey.
Thanks for letting me share. :-) XO

ronf

Thank you, Wonderful post. I'm an AA'er myself, but whether it's AA or not, being face too face with someone just like yourself and feeling they're support can make all the difference. It's a sense of comfort in an uncomfortable world.

Please keep posting,

Ron

bellakeller

I am so glad you are getting help. Anything seems better than doing this sobriety thing alone.

Thanks for posting!

Much love.

Anna

I'm glad you felt positive about the meeting.

Kjell

Hi Marcia-

I don't want to do "this" on my own and b/c of that...

I'm very grateful for the program and fellowship of AA.

Welcome and if you work the steps, get ready for the ride of your life!

Kjell~

marcia36

Looking forward to starting the steps....and a new life!

iliveforyou

That is awesome that you had such an amazing experience with the meeting! I'm not an AA'er but I encourage those who've never been to give it a chance as it has helped countless people Here's to many more positive experiences for you...

-Jess

wander2

I was like you.. but I also find it theraputic to talk to other Alcoholics. its weird it doesn't matter what walk of life they are from. When it comes to alcohol we are all the same.

artsoul

She was there when you needed someone, and you were there for her too! Very cool.......

I made a life-long friend (20+ years) at one of my first AA meetings.... I'm so glad you got a chance to experience a more positive meeting.

EmeraldRose

It was different because you are ready this time. I love AA I think its great if I share or not. I enjoy everyone's stories and honesty. Its humbling.
Good for you.

Ghostlight

What an uplifting post! It really made my day. Mostly for YOU!
You sought out help and you found it. That is so great.
You should be proud of yourself. I'm sure proud of you.

CarolD

I hope you will stay conneccted to AA.....it continues to be an awesome adventure in living with purpose and joy for me..

well done on your sober time...