comanche

2 in the morning and woke up with a lot of anxiety/craving a drink.

Thought occurs to me that my alcoholism is kind of like a hydra, when I lop off one head (drinking) another self-destructive facet of the disease kicks in (cigarrettes, unhealthy relationships, etc.) This self-destructive force inside me is really strong and will search for any number of ways to make itself felt.

Just wanted to post on here instead of drinking.

Dee74

Hi comanche

Yeah, cravings are tough - but they're finite
Coming here is a good idea - lots to read and get engaged in

I found the ideas in this link helpful too

Overcoming Life's Obstacles: Urge Surfing to beat addictions and cravings

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JTele

Good idea! Welcome to SR, comanche! You can always feel free to post here whenever you feel like it, so please don't hesitate. Most of us have been in the same place you're in right now, so you're certainly not alone.

Missybuns

yes it was a great idea to post instead of drinking!
Those self-destructive lies may be predominant until some more time passes with not acting on those urges. They do pass. Getting real with them ASAP is my method of living through the discomfort of the experience.
Learn all you can and then apply the suggestions to find out if they help. Always make more than one effort to be sure you are giving it your best effort. If it works the first time....well then, there ya go.

Peace,
Missy

yoli

Hi Comache,

I get those feelings very strong when life makes me upset now. Very hard to overcome, but the peace and good feelings return if you don't give in.

soberjohndoe

I'm in the same spot you are right now i just keep on telling myself it will pass and one day i won't be a neurotic sleepless chain smokin drunk anymore

abstinant

I had to use Valium. With doctor's help and reducing doses. Worked just fine and was MUCH better after day 3-4.

Lipitor

well done buddy ..keep posting

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