Keeping up with life
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Keeping up with life
I have actually been sober from cocain and exctacy now for 1 year and 4 months, however the alcohol and weed (if you count weed, i do) only about 4 days.
The hard drugs I had been to rehab for for a year, I came back started again and have since quit on my own. The drinking and weed has gone down a lot, and I don't do it much, however I still consider it being a part of addiction because I do it to get away.
I am working now to start a new life, I recently (last night) broke up with my fiance of almost 3 years and I am trying as hard as I can to stay away from drugs and alcohol. I found this site today and thought it would be a wonderful place for support and to help others
The hard drugs I had been to rehab for for a year, I came back started again and have since quit on my own. The drinking and weed has gone down a lot, and I don't do it much, however I still consider it being a part of addiction because I do it to get away.
I am working now to start a new life, I recently (last night) broke up with my fiance of almost 3 years and I am trying as hard as I can to stay away from drugs and alcohol. I found this site today and thought it would be a wonderful place for support and to help others
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Join Date: Dec 2005
Location: Baton Rouge, La.
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SR has been an excellent and helpful program I
added to my recovery yrs ago as I continue to
come here day after day even with 20 yrs sobriety.
Why, you ask? Arent you cured? You dont want to
drink again do you? 20 yrs. man you got it made,
right?
20 yrs is just a number. Quanity of many one days
sober added a day at a time to get me where I am today.
Yesterday I didnt want to drink and today so far I
havent felt the need to get one either. Tomorrow
is a new day and I havent the slightest idea of what
will happen tomorrow in my life. For all I know today
could be my last. Hope not tho. Im enjoying life too
much today.
Why do I keep coming here after 20 yrs. Well I have
purpose in life I found out yrs ago. That purpose is
to share with the newcomer my own ESH, experiences
strengths and hopes of what it was like for me before
during and after alcohol.
Why should I care about anyone else you ask?
I do care and do hope all find a program of recovery
and learn to live a happy joyous and free life without
alcohol but mainly I do this for me. If I step away from
my program then my old stinkin thinkin will creep back
in telling me that it is safe to go back out and drink or
I can handle it with no consequenses.
For me I know that is bullsh*t because I tried so many
times to control my drinking to only fail. To only end up
lieing, cheating, stealing. Feeling selfish, rude, ashames,
scared, afraid and so much more.
Living a sober life helping the newcomer by sharing my ESH
with them and incorperating the steps and principles of AA
in my everyday life, being honest and trustworth, loving,
caring, then why would I want to go back to the misery I
lived and almost died over.
Quality of recovery with a solid foundation to live on rather
than quanity of days just not drinking is so much better and
far more rewarding.
Good luck and welcome.
added to my recovery yrs ago as I continue to
come here day after day even with 20 yrs sobriety.
Why, you ask? Arent you cured? You dont want to
drink again do you? 20 yrs. man you got it made,
right?
20 yrs is just a number. Quanity of many one days
sober added a day at a time to get me where I am today.
Yesterday I didnt want to drink and today so far I
havent felt the need to get one either. Tomorrow
is a new day and I havent the slightest idea of what
will happen tomorrow in my life. For all I know today
could be my last. Hope not tho. Im enjoying life too
much today.
Why do I keep coming here after 20 yrs. Well I have
purpose in life I found out yrs ago. That purpose is
to share with the newcomer my own ESH, experiences
strengths and hopes of what it was like for me before
during and after alcohol.
Why should I care about anyone else you ask?
I do care and do hope all find a program of recovery
and learn to live a happy joyous and free life without
alcohol but mainly I do this for me. If I step away from
my program then my old stinkin thinkin will creep back
in telling me that it is safe to go back out and drink or
I can handle it with no consequenses.
For me I know that is bullsh*t because I tried so many
times to control my drinking to only fail. To only end up
lieing, cheating, stealing. Feeling selfish, rude, ashames,
scared, afraid and so much more.
Living a sober life helping the newcomer by sharing my ESH
with them and incorperating the steps and principles of AA
in my everyday life, being honest and trustworth, loving,
caring, then why would I want to go back to the misery I
lived and almost died over.
Quality of recovery with a solid foundation to live on rather
than quanity of days just not drinking is so much better and
far more rewarding.
Good luck and welcome.
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Join Date: Feb 2008
Posts: 2,433
Welcome to SR Ranepk44
Sharon said it best, I think:
Drastic changes are not usually recommended during initial recovery, but it sounds like you sure needed a clean break, and that you found the courage to see it through.
You'll find lots of support in SR. And:
that's what it's all about Welcome.
Sharon said it best, I think:
Originally Posted by aasharon90 
(....)
Quality of recovery with a solid foundation to live on rather
than quanity of days just not drinking is so much better and
far more rewarding.
Quality of recovery with a solid foundation to live on rather
than quanity of days just not drinking is so much better and
far more rewarding.
You'll find lots of support in SR. And:
Originally Posted by ranepk44
to help others
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Join Date: Apr 2011
Location: Australia
Posts: 94
I've had all the same problems minus the cocaine. Replace the coke with oxycodeine and benzos I guess. The ecstasy binges were about 2 years ago and it was easily the best weeks/months of my entire life but luckily good pills aren't easy to find where I live. When I ran out I went into a very dark depression. I miss it like crazy, sometimes even dream I'm rolling and wake up with a huge grin on my face. But at the rate I was doing them I was heading for an early grave, messed up health or a mental institution. I'm scared to think what might happen if a huge supply turned up and I had the chance to abuse them again. But no matter how good they are, I have to avoid them like the plague.
I hate how weed has this reputation of being a soft drug. Sure it doesn't screw up your health as much as other stuff, but I've been hooked on it a couple of years. Some people might say I have a weak will and all that, and oh but you can't get addicted to it. Well when you use it to keep your stress down every day the habit gets out of control, my memory is terrible because of it. I've stopped now (only about a week ago) and I'm feeling more depressed because my mind is clearer and I can now focus on all the problems in my life. But also happier in a way, because it seems like I've grown up and realised how badly it's screwed up my outlook on life. Also, weed and alcohol mixes badly, I've been really sick, fainted and had a seizure once from mixing these two. I think the seizure was caused by being over tired as well. It was the only time it happened in my life and it should have been an eye opener to look after myself better, but I just kept drinking and smoking.
I'm just so sick of bouncing from drug to drug, I never needed this crap when I was a kid. I've just had this mentality ever since I started drinking, that I can use drugs to escape my problems and even "fix them". I know better now, drugs end up multiplying your problems by a thousand. I'm just so ashamed that I let everything get out of control, and putting my family through this. My reputation is mud right now but it's not too late. If I said all this anywhere else I would be judged so harshly that I would probably go out and buy an ounce. This community is just what I need.
Ranepk, let's do this together. We'll be completely different people a year down the road.
I hate how weed has this reputation of being a soft drug. Sure it doesn't screw up your health as much as other stuff, but I've been hooked on it a couple of years. Some people might say I have a weak will and all that, and oh but you can't get addicted to it. Well when you use it to keep your stress down every day the habit gets out of control, my memory is terrible because of it. I've stopped now (only about a week ago) and I'm feeling more depressed because my mind is clearer and I can now focus on all the problems in my life. But also happier in a way, because it seems like I've grown up and realised how badly it's screwed up my outlook on life. Also, weed and alcohol mixes badly, I've been really sick, fainted and had a seizure once from mixing these two. I think the seizure was caused by being over tired as well. It was the only time it happened in my life and it should have been an eye opener to look after myself better, but I just kept drinking and smoking.
I'm just so sick of bouncing from drug to drug, I never needed this crap when I was a kid. I've just had this mentality ever since I started drinking, that I can use drugs to escape my problems and even "fix them". I know better now, drugs end up multiplying your problems by a thousand. I'm just so ashamed that I let everything get out of control, and putting my family through this. My reputation is mud right now but it's not too late. If I said all this anywhere else I would be judged so harshly that I would probably go out and buy an ounce. This community is just what I need.
Ranepk, let's do this together. We'll be completely different people a year down the road.
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Join Date: Jan 2011
Location: New Jersey
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I was taking painkillers at a certain point but not drinking. It really didn't matter-- I was not sober.
I've come to understand that if I put anything mind-altering in my body, I'm not sober. Just a fact, and for me, it keeps it very simple. I suffer from a spiritual malady that finds relief when I am able to get sedated, stimulated, intoxicated, wired, high, etc. It quiets the madness, and that's what alcoholism and addiction is for me-- sheer madness, particularly when I'm sober and unable to shut down the noise.
There's a way to recover from the underlying disease, and it only starts with not drinking and doing drugs.
I've come to understand that if I put anything mind-altering in my body, I'm not sober. Just a fact, and for me, it keeps it very simple. I suffer from a spiritual malady that finds relief when I am able to get sedated, stimulated, intoxicated, wired, high, etc. It quiets the madness, and that's what alcoholism and addiction is for me-- sheer madness, particularly when I'm sober and unable to shut down the noise.
There's a way to recover from the underlying disease, and it only starts with not drinking and doing drugs.
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