ACT10Npack

I'm feeling really bad now. Coming down on my high on alcohol. My headaches and just sitting here on my computer. Feeling stupid and I hope I didn't hurt no one feelings.

sorry again.
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Bikeguy

ACT10Npack,

Sorry to hear that, I hope you make the choice to leave booze behind for good. Pick your self up, dust yourself off and get back in the game.

FrothyJay

Drinking was unavoidable for me unless I treated my alcoholism.

Not drinking was not treating my alcoholism.

I realized I was always going to drink again regardless of the consequences when I was left to my own devices.

Abstinence, trying hard not to drink, is my own device to fix a problem that I simply can't comprehend.

A spiritual awakening, true recovery and relief from the desire to drink, is a result of a different device-- the steps of AA.

I am powerless; I am therefore not responsible for my inability to not drink.

I am however, completely responsible for treating the underlying disease that drives my drinking.

Zini

Good luck, Action. We're all in this together.

recoverywfaith

We recover together...been there; but guess what - you do not ever have to drink again!

hibou

Dear Frothy Jay, I believe you are right. I am struggling and cannot find any spirituality. I know this is the only way forward but I am just having such a hard time believing myself. How did you get there?

Genjen

Hey Action, good luck...keep at it ok? *hugs*

CarolD

Welcome back to SR....

Many of us started over before we found our way
....You too can win over alcohol

FrothyJay

I found recovery through the steps of AA, and someone showing me how to do them as AA intended.

Importantly, I did not believe much before I did them-- in myself, or even in a higher power. What I believed more than anything was that I was out of options-- that I was completely powerless over alcohol. Some call it the gift of desperation.

And to be clear on what "spirituality" is-- for me, it's mainly clarity. It's not some overwhelming sense of a diety in my life-- it's clarity about my first step-- and relief from the desire to drink. I hear no voices, I don't speak in tongues, I don't levitate. I don't want to drink, and I want to share what I did with other alcoholics because that's how I maintain it. And each day, I take this gift and I try to nuture it just a bit-- through getting quiet and being concious of the change in me, through asking God to direct my thinking, and trying to be of maximum service to other people. I do this while having a family and a job and other demands, so I am far from perfect at it. But I do not want to drink because the steps cleared those things in my life that were blocking me off from a power that could solve my problem.

So what do you do? You find a sponsor who's done the steps out of the Big Book. You ask them what they did-- you interview them before asking them to help you. And then you do what they suggest. And that willingness is all that's required from you.

Hevyn

You're back & that's what matters. You found out it wasn't fun or relaxing, just led you right back to misery. That's valuable information you can use.

You can do it - just get back to work on your sobriety. We're all hoping for the best for you.