9 yrs. 4 mths. shot
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Join Date: Apr 2011
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Hi stacylove. Thank you for the kind words. WOW, I had never thought about being an insperation. Yes this is a dark place and I also do not like it one bit. I remember exactly what was going through my head when I quit. I thought, I have been on this journey ( drinking and yes drugs) for along time, so I said I'am going to take another journey and go 100% clean and see how that goes. I think I may have been expecting to much lately and became discouraged. I hope this helps.
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Originally Posted by stacylove 
I find myself saying only today and then changing it to only tomorrow too, ok I will stop on Monday, or next week or on the 1st, it never ends. I hate this feeling, and I see the struggle never ends.
When you are addicted, all you care about is today - the next high, and that feeling supersedes any thoughts of the long-term future.
You know the date you where born, but do you know how many days it has been since your last birthday? Do you count the days since then? Somehow I doubt it.
Stop counting days !
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Hey--just yesterday
You wrote me a long note about your achievements on my Day One. I know you can do this because you were so helpful to me--YESTERDAY.
On the other hand, I've just had a phone call changing an appontment this afternoon--so I thought I would have a drink.
The kitchen is a mess--I could open a bottle of wine and enjoy cleaning it.
It's sunny outside. I need a drink to celebrate.
The problem is that I (we?) can't have a drink cause it's okay today. I know that if I have a glass of wine I will get tired and need another. And I know where to get tequila. And I will.
So the response is--don't start.
But more important: If you do start, don't assume you have to keep going. And maybe it's nice to have a long time with no setbacks, but it's starting over that will make you strong. That's the test. It isn't a matter of whether you can keep doing something that is going well. It's whether you can climb back up.
Man, I couldn't imagine getting through this without this listserv. And you know we are here for you--even use newbies who are still shiny with the love and caring others (largely you) offer.
On the other hand, I've just had a phone call changing an appontment this afternoon--so I thought I would have a drink.
The kitchen is a mess--I could open a bottle of wine and enjoy cleaning it.
It's sunny outside. I need a drink to celebrate.
The problem is that I (we?) can't have a drink cause it's okay today. I know that if I have a glass of wine I will get tired and need another. And I know where to get tequila. And I will.
So the response is--don't start.
But more important: If you do start, don't assume you have to keep going. And maybe it's nice to have a long time with no setbacks, but it's starting over that will make you strong. That's the test. It isn't a matter of whether you can keep doing something that is going well. It's whether you can climb back up.
Man, I couldn't imagine getting through this without this listserv. And you know we are here for you--even use newbies who are still shiny with the love and caring others (largely you) offer.
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Join Date: Mar 2011
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Originally Posted by Missy7
I know that if I have a glass of wine I will get tired and need another. And I know where to get tequila. And I will.
Wonderful insight, Missy7.
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