new here...my husband has a problem with MY drinking
I've gone to AA a few times...prob didn't try hard enough if I'm still in the same place as I was 6 months ago...I think I may have to try again, with more commitment. Obviously I have issues....
It stole my joy too - I thought joylessness was something everyone had.
But I got my joy back - I'm an adult, I'm dealing with adult things - and sometimes not good things - but I feel that kiddish 12 yo sense of 'anything is possible' again.
You can get that back too jstar...I promise
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But I got my joy back - I'm an adult, I'm dealing with adult things - and sometimes not good things - but I feel that kiddish 12 yo sense of 'anything is possible' again.
You can get that back too jstar...I promise
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AA will work for you, but you have to do more than just go to meetings. However, in the beginning, going to meetings is how you start. Remember, everyone in that room knows the problem. But they have found and are working on the solution. Listen to them. And what you say about not trying hard enough -- most of us in the rooms have been there. Your choice to work it or not, but "half measures availed us nothing."
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I feel like your story could be mine, jstar. Vodka was also my drink of choice, I thought no one could smell it, it mixed well with whatever I had around the house, and it seemed it could drink it just like koolaid in amazing amounts. Life is so much better without it. You are very lucky to have a family that loves you and will support you, and there is a lot of support and good advice here. Please check out the different recovery groups availabe. People do recover through many different paths. I think you have to be get sober first to realize what a wonderful life you can have. I was terrified of boring, empty days and nights too. But I have found lately that I am learning who I was before alcohol was my best friend and daily companion. And it is so much better. I sleep great now (after a short adjustment period), I can work out because I feel good and am not hung over every day, and I am just a much kinder and honest person when I am sober. It's not easy but it IS possible. Give yourself an opportunity to experience a life that you deserve.
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I can't add anything that hasn't been said already & better. I'm approaching my first month sober in over 20years. I totally relate to everything you've said, but it DOES get better, really, even after such a short time. Mornings are GREAT & I had completely forgotten the taste of self-esteem which I had so thoroughly drowned bottles of the cheapest-most-alcoholic-wine-available.
You, and your family deserve so much more. Please, do it NOW. Just today, don't drink.
Thinking of you
You, and your family deserve so much more. Please, do it NOW. Just today, don't drink.
Thinking of you
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hello
i'm new here to these boards. have enjoyed reading other's posts tonight before deciding to post myself.
i don't admit to being an alcoholic or not one...just yet. i've had a whirlwind of a year and some days I think I have issues and others I just think I'm overreacting. Although it's starting to hit me....my husband told me two days ago (when I was complaining that he hadn't gone out to a birthday party for a mutual friend to a bar with me over the weekend) that he doesn't like to be around me when I'm drinking. He says that I act different and he never knows which "wife" he will get. I've tried to understand this. I've never been one of the people who drinks and gets violent or crazy. I always thought that I was the "fun" one when I was drinking! He says I'm loud and that it's not as amusing as I think it is in my "drunk" perspective.
i don't know what kind of advise i'm looking for really. A little about me, I'm 31, I own my own business which i work about 10-15 hrs a day. I have 4 kids from 12 down to 3...we are busy...all the time. i drink, pretty much every day. I like to go out with my girlfriends because my husband says that he doesn't want to go anywhere where people may be drinking.
i guess i'm just trying to figure out life...aren't we all?
thanx
i'm new here to these boards. have enjoyed reading other's posts tonight before deciding to post myself.
i don't admit to being an alcoholic or not one...just yet. i've had a whirlwind of a year and some days I think I have issues and others I just think I'm overreacting. Although it's starting to hit me....my husband told me two days ago (when I was complaining that he hadn't gone out to a birthday party for a mutual friend to a bar with me over the weekend) that he doesn't like to be around me when I'm drinking. He says that I act different and he never knows which "wife" he will get. I've tried to understand this. I've never been one of the people who drinks and gets violent or crazy. I always thought that I was the "fun" one when I was drinking! He says I'm loud and that it's not as amusing as I think it is in my "drunk" perspective.
i don't know what kind of advise i'm looking for really. A little about me, I'm 31, I own my own business which i work about 10-15 hrs a day. I have 4 kids from 12 down to 3...we are busy...all the time. i drink, pretty much every day. I like to go out with my girlfriends because my husband says that he doesn't want to go anywhere where people may be drinking.
i guess i'm just trying to figure out life...aren't we all?
thanx
Have you ever asked him to video tape you and play it for the sober version of yourself? I know that when I see or hear what I was like, and I'm sober, I realize just why everyone was "making such a big deal out of it"
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Every now and again, a thread gets started that turns to gold.
This is one. I am reading each post and the reality and seriousness and similarities are phenomenal. There are a lot of very wise people here. We are so lucky to have found SR. This thread is in itself all one might need to read to get started.
When we begin to rationalize our drinking, and spend time trying to defend it, we have a problem. We are overwhelmed and busy and there are not enough hours in the day. And the answer to this problem?
Why, tie one on and use up time getting drunk, sleeping it off, getting over the hangover, and trying to make up for lost time that we were complaining we didn't have enough of in the first place!
If that ain't insanity!!!
Thanks everyone. Am going to figure out how to keep this thread where I can go back and re-read it.
This is one. I am reading each post and the reality and seriousness and similarities are phenomenal. There are a lot of very wise people here. We are so lucky to have found SR. This thread is in itself all one might need to read to get started.
When we begin to rationalize our drinking, and spend time trying to defend it, we have a problem. We are overwhelmed and busy and there are not enough hours in the day. And the answer to this problem?
Why, tie one on and use up time getting drunk, sleeping it off, getting over the hangover, and trying to make up for lost time that we were complaining we didn't have enough of in the first place!
If that ain't insanity!!!
Thanks everyone. Am going to figure out how to keep this thread where I can go back and re-read it.
I'm surprised to hear you went to AA before--I was under the impression you were just hearing about this alleged "problem" for the first time. What was the impetus for you to go then?
GettingStronger is right--AA is way more than just sitting your butt in a chair for an hour. That doesn't get anyone recovered.
My GUESS is that the first time you went, you were comparing yourself to other people and figuring you weren't "that bad". Next time you go, forget about the details of the DUIs, hospitalizations, job loss, and REALLY LISTEN to what people say about what alcohol did for them--not to them, but FOR them. How it made parties seem more fun, how it seemed to be the only way to escape from their feelings or unpleasant circumstances, how it was their BEST FRIEND. Until, of course, it turned on them.
It is already turning on you.
GettingStronger is right--AA is way more than just sitting your butt in a chair for an hour. That doesn't get anyone recovered.
My GUESS is that the first time you went, you were comparing yourself to other people and figuring you weren't "that bad". Next time you go, forget about the details of the DUIs, hospitalizations, job loss, and REALLY LISTEN to what people say about what alcohol did for them--not to them, but FOR them. How it made parties seem more fun, how it seemed to be the only way to escape from their feelings or unpleasant circumstances, how it was their BEST FRIEND. Until, of course, it turned on them.
It is already turning on you.
LOL, lexie... I remember my second day at treatment... They asked me where I was from... I wouldn't tell them... LOL... I didn't want anyone to know anything about me, where I was from, why I was there, what had happened previously...
They used to write on the big white board everyday, up the corner, with an asterisk and a circle around it... "Rigorous Honesty"... I didn't know much about honesty then, I had not been honest with anyone for a long long time... least of all, myself!
Honesty is a scary thing, jstar, right up there with accountability! But as you (hopefully) begin this journey, these things, honesty, accountability and.... TRUST (another really hard thing to learn, LOL)... these things will all come to you... For me, thankfully, they came relatively early... Always remember, here, as in AA, we are on the same side.
They used to write on the big white board everyday, up the corner, with an asterisk and a circle around it... "Rigorous Honesty"... I didn't know much about honesty then, I had not been honest with anyone for a long long time... least of all, myself!
Honesty is a scary thing, jstar, right up there with accountability! But as you (hopefully) begin this journey, these things, honesty, accountability and.... TRUST (another really hard thing to learn, LOL)... these things will all come to you... For me, thankfully, they came relatively early... Always remember, here, as in AA, we are on the same side.
Has your husband ever told you have any other problem that you don't agree with? If that answer is no, then my guess is he's right. Our spouses see us in different, more realistic, ways than we see ourselves.
Best of luck!
Best of luck!
I'm surprised to hear you went to AA before--I was under the impression you were just hearing about this alleged "problem" for the first time. What was the impetus for you to go then?
My GUESS is that the first time you went, you were comparing yourself to other people and figuring you weren't "that bad".
My GUESS is that the first time you went, you were comparing yourself to other people and figuring you weren't "that bad".
maybe what got me thinking again is the drink in my coffee cup that i take to the kids' sports games over the weekend...or the vodka i pour into my redbull can - who would notice that?...or trying to sneak one in before any function that i don't have to drive to. maybe it was the fact that i stopped driving to my girls night altogether just so i wouldn't have to worry about driving home - i even take a taxi home if no one can drive me home. maybe i hate the fact that my husband has no interest in being around me because of my drinking....he is a good man.
i'm debating about going to an AA meeting tonight....or having a drink and going to a meeting tomorrow. Could i really give it all up right now? the thought of it makes me feel cheated...
you have nothing to lose, and possibly everything to gain by going to AA tonight. On the other hand, you may have much to lose if you prolong the drinking. Just a thought! Why not give it a try again? Hugs!
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Put down the drink or the idea of one, and go to the meeting now.
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