Class of April 2011
Meow
Join Date: Jul 2009
Location: The Great Lakes State
Posts: 1,585
I was class of August - 2009 (wow) - and have had my ups and downs.
Figured I'd jump into this class and say hi.
My drinking problem stems from my inability to deal with my husband's drinking problem, if that makes any sense. Except that in the last year I was losing control over it (ie drinking too many at a time and getting drunk more often than in the past), which is (obviously) not a good thing. From a quitting perspective, I am not physically addicted (thank God) but the mental addiction coupled with other things is enough to deal with for me.
You know, sober I look at my husband and shake my head. The amount he drinks. The way he smells. The smoking of cigarettes and pot. He's killing himself.
Then I look at my (16 year old) son, and think - with the exception of the pot and cigarettes, he's probably thinking the same thing about me! It's amazing how chatty he's been with me this past week after his father goes to sleep...probably because I'm more interesting to talk with sober.
I'm beginning to see a future as a non-drinker. A year ago I couldn't. I quit smoking. I quit caffeine. Both of those drugs are bad for me. Alcohol isn't exactly a wonderful drug either, know what I mean?
Anyway, good to see you all here. Hang tough!
Figured I'd jump into this class and say hi.
My drinking problem stems from my inability to deal with my husband's drinking problem, if that makes any sense. Except that in the last year I was losing control over it (ie drinking too many at a time and getting drunk more often than in the past), which is (obviously) not a good thing. From a quitting perspective, I am not physically addicted (thank God) but the mental addiction coupled with other things is enough to deal with for me.
You know, sober I look at my husband and shake my head. The amount he drinks. The way he smells. The smoking of cigarettes and pot. He's killing himself.
Then I look at my (16 year old) son, and think - with the exception of the pot and cigarettes, he's probably thinking the same thing about me! It's amazing how chatty he's been with me this past week after his father goes to sleep...probably because I'm more interesting to talk with sober.
I'm beginning to see a future as a non-drinker. A year ago I couldn't. I quit smoking. I quit caffeine. Both of those drugs are bad for me. Alcohol isn't exactly a wonderful drug either, know what I mean?
Anyway, good to see you all here. Hang tough!
Member
Join Date: Nov 2010
Location: Tennessee
Posts: 100
I'm back. I had 70 days behind me before having a beer on a dinner out a couple of months ago. That's all it took for me to jump backwards into bad habits. April 1st was my first sober day since that dinner out. I'm finishing up my 3rd day now, and I'm not feeling great, but I need to get through this. Glad to be part of the group again...
Forward we go...side by side-Rest In Peace
Join Date: Jun 2002
Location: Serene In Dixie
Posts: 36,740
Congratulations to everyone who is just beginning
or making a new sober start...
April is the month both Dee and I found our recovery
that can be true for you too...
or making a new sober start...
April is the month both Dee and I found our recovery
that can be true for you too...
Earth Child
Thread Starter
Join Date: Mar 2011
Location: Edinburgh, Scotland
Posts: 2,004
Not doing so well at the moment ... i walked out an AA meeting today just felt so panicky and uncomfortable there
Really want to drink right now ....apart of me really want to throw all i have done away
Really want to drink right now ....apart of me really want to throw all i have done away
Earth Child
Thread Starter
Join Date: Mar 2011
Location: Edinburgh, Scotland
Posts: 2,004
Talked to my husband about how i am feeling we talked for a little while
dont want to go to an AA meeting tomorrow worried i will walk out again
shops have stopped selling alcohol now and the nearest bar is about half an hours walk away.
Going to try and sleep it might help
dont want to go to an AA meeting tomorrow worried i will walk out again
shops have stopped selling alcohol now and the nearest bar is about half an hours walk away.
Going to try and sleep it might help
Member
Join Date: Nov 2010
Location: Tennessee
Posts: 100
Carol and Dee - Thanks for the welcome!
XWillowX - I hope you're making it through the evening well. We are all pulling for you!
Draper, Eclipse, Lovelife27 - Welcome to the group!
Day 4 has been rough, but I made it through. It's gonna get better...
phytoman
XWillowX - I hope you're making it through the evening well. We are all pulling for you!
Draper, Eclipse, Lovelife27 - Welcome to the group!
Day 4 has been rough, but I made it through. It's gonna get better...
phytoman
Member
Join Date: Apr 2011
Location: AZ
Posts: 217
Hey everyone. Almost through day 2. Real tired. Never sleep well drinking or sober.
My wife threw down the gauntlet, so to speak, last night. So as my user name says "time to quit, this time for good". Or I'll be looking for alternative housing.
Hope everyone is doing well and sticks with it.
My wife threw down the gauntlet, so to speak, last night. So as my user name says "time to quit, this time for good". Or I'll be looking for alternative housing.
Hope everyone is doing well and sticks with it.
Member
Join Date: Apr 2011
Posts: 44
You guys hang tough....I screwed up almost a week of sobriety today. Expecting a big check from an accident settlement and ended up with about half of what was quoted by my attorney.Then I had to tell my sweetie that I cannot come back to her as I promised. Broke my heart....and probably hers. And today I am homeless. Typing this from my 92 Jeep Cherokee. I have slept here many times, usually after passing out. But I'm semi sober tonight and very remorseful. It's kind of weird, Sorry for bailing on you all, but I had to spend my last 7 dollars on something...lol.
Member
Join Date: Jan 2011
Location: MA
Posts: 21
HI all,
Well, today is day 3 for me- last night I was meeting friends after work for dinner and was a nervous wreck...I could feel the cravings starting around 3:30PM..."ahhhhh...looking forward to a few glasses of wine with friends"...( knowing full well, it woudl be at least a bottle for me)..it is amazing how that voice just starts up an dtakes over my thoughts..Here I am at work and all I can think of is drinking!!!! I almost cancelled my dinner plans,because, I really want to stop drinking this time and i felt if I went I woudl blow it yet again.
Well, I got on SR at work before I left and just kept reading posts....then I started to think of this voice in my head as not me but someone or something else and kept thnking to myself- "You" want to drink NOT ME! I kept telling myself I am stronger than this voice, over and over again and then it was like I had a challenge going within myself....I told myslef, you are going out to dinner- YOU are in charge of what you do not the "voice"- so I did go. Had a great time seeing old friends and didn't DRINK!!!
I felt like a million bucks when i walked out of the restaurant!!! I praised myself all the way home_ I was psyched that I WON the Battle last night!!!
I hope I can continue to do this!! My apologies for the rambling on, but this is the first time in a while that I have beenable to do this!!!
Day 3 here I come. Thanks to all of you in SR- I appeciate the support!!!
Good Luck everyone!
Well, today is day 3 for me- last night I was meeting friends after work for dinner and was a nervous wreck...I could feel the cravings starting around 3:30PM..."ahhhhh...looking forward to a few glasses of wine with friends"...( knowing full well, it woudl be at least a bottle for me)..it is amazing how that voice just starts up an dtakes over my thoughts..Here I am at work and all I can think of is drinking!!!! I almost cancelled my dinner plans,because, I really want to stop drinking this time and i felt if I went I woudl blow it yet again.
Well, I got on SR at work before I left and just kept reading posts....then I started to think of this voice in my head as not me but someone or something else and kept thnking to myself- "You" want to drink NOT ME! I kept telling myself I am stronger than this voice, over and over again and then it was like I had a challenge going within myself....I told myslef, you are going out to dinner- YOU are in charge of what you do not the "voice"- so I did go. Had a great time seeing old friends and didn't DRINK!!!
I felt like a million bucks when i walked out of the restaurant!!! I praised myself all the way home_ I was psyched that I WON the Battle last night!!!
I hope I can continue to do this!! My apologies for the rambling on, but this is the first time in a while that I have beenable to do this!!!
Day 3 here I come. Thanks to all of you in SR- I appeciate the support!!!
Good Luck everyone!
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