ulfr

I relapsed i drank half a pint of cider the alcoholic kind of cider
Then my sponsor called me back from earlier when i tried to call her
I made the choice to pour all the cider down the sink and have coffee instead

I feel bad for drinking now but i felt i really needed it at the time

Anna

But, hopefully you see that you didn't really need it at the time.

It's getting through the difficult moments that help us recover and to make recovery a bit easier.

I'm glad you're back on track!

suki44883

Well, you didn't need it, you just thought you did. What happens next time when you start telling yourself you really need a drink? It's up to you to put forth the effort to get past those cravings, and they can be brutal.

You asked the other day if attending two AA meetings a day was too much. No, it isn't, and it may not be enough when those cravings hit. When they do, don't pick up a bottle, go to a meeting.

Steve86

relapse doesn't happen by accident. You can't justify each slip. You called your sponsor and lefty a message. Did you call anyone else - get numbers and call before you drink. get back to a meeting - 2 a day ISN'T too much. you need to be somewhere safe and that may be going to several meetings a day.

Kjell

Hi Willow-

First of all - GREAT job actually answering the phone

Before I even had the thought that I needed to quit I wouldn't answer the phone unless it was for more fun or more girls or more drugs.

I certainly wouldn't have answered it if someone called a sponsor was calling to tell me to not drink.

...and an even better job pouring the rest down the sink.

Now you gotta work on not taking the first drink.

Kjell~

Mida

I second the other folks who are focusing on the positive...you answered your sponsor and you threw out the drink...AND you reached out to SR for support...I haven't been clean for very long but I hope that I can handle adverse times as well as you have.

Also, the suggestion to increase meetings seems good to me as it provides a tangible alternative to drinking...take care

EmeraldRose

It is great to be positive and that can certainly take you through another battle. I'm happy to hear you poured the rest...that takes nerve -I remember that feeling. It's not easy.
Can you think back to what you were feeling...were you angry? Anxious? Upset over something? I think dealing with the feelings we have during a relapse can make the difference in you getting to that point of drinking - or not.

yeahgr8

Well hopefully you can discount the crazy advice that all you need to do is to try, try again or get a hobby etc and get back down to AA and begin working on the solution which is the steps with a sponsor who can guide you through the process...good luck:-)