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Join Date: Mar 2011
Location: Denver, CO
Posts: 3
returning
I don't remember what my old name here was - mle-sober maybe? - At any rate - you guys helped me get sober the first time a little over 3 years ago. I recently relapsed. I just wanted to die. Drinking seemed like it seriously didn't matter at all - who cared if I was going to get drunk if I was going to die? But here I am - 2 ER trips, one 6-day stay inpatient - back on my feet. I do want to live. Am surprised to find that out. I have four kids to live for. Four kids to stay sober for. Two parents that still care. One boyfriend that still cares.
If I can't stay sober for me, maybe I can stay sober for them.
And maybe checking back in here now and again will help me.
If I can't stay sober for me, maybe I can stay sober for them.
And maybe checking back in here now and again will help me.
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 211,435
Now I know who you are - I'm really sorry you relapsed and went through that, e, but it's good to have you back 
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I really didn't have much invested in myself for a long time. I'd never been good at self esteem.
But I did work out I didn't want to die....and I knew I had others rooting for me, even if I wasn't exactly sure why...
I put my head down...I got sober...I stayed that way and then I started to work through the decades of debris...and I got 'me' back...and I found, with somewhat of a start, that I like me.
Me is actually pretty good.
I think you'll find the same, e - trust me
Trust us
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.I really didn't have much invested in myself for a long time. I'd never been good at self esteem.
But I did work out I didn't want to die....and I knew I had others rooting for me, even if I wasn't exactly sure why...
I put my head down...I got sober...I stayed that way and then I started to work through the decades of debris...and I got 'me' back...and I found, with somewhat of a start, that I like me.
Me is actually pretty good.
I think you'll find the same, e - trust me
Trust us
D
RIP Sweet Suki
Join Date: Apr 2008
Location: In my sanctuary, my home
Posts: 39,904
I had to go back and read some of your past posts. You were one of the first people to welcome me to SR. I always enjoyed reading your posts. I hope you will stick around and again help others while getting some help for yourself. I'm glad you're back.
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Join Date: Feb 2011
Location: I'm exactly where I should be.
Posts: 1,889
Hi surrender...I'm kinda new here...don't remember you but hope you stay so I get to know you.
I hope you will succeed this time around...you have to do it for yourself first.
I have kids and caring parents...its hard sometimes but I need to help myself before I can be of any use to them. Wishing you well...
I hope you will succeed this time around...you have to do it for yourself first.
I have kids and caring parents...its hard sometimes but I need to help myself before I can be of any use to them. Wishing you well...
Snarf Snarf
Join Date: Mar 2010
Location: ATL
Posts: 835
The way I see it, if you staying sober makes your loved ones happy, and making your loved ones happy makes you happy, you're really doing it for yourself, not them. I realized that I get a lot of enjoyment out of other people being happy about my recovery. It's truly a wonderful feeling when my parents or fiancee or siblings or friends tell me that they're proud of me, that I'm doing a good job. I know it's all because I've allowed God to work in my life and he's doing all the heavy lifting for me, but it's still a good feeling nonetheless.
Thanks for coming back. Obviously you saw something in this site the first time that made you want to return. I'm so thankful every single day for the part that SR.com plays in my recovery. I'm very glad you're here.
Thanks for coming back. Obviously you saw something in this site the first time that made you want to return. I'm so thankful every single day for the part that SR.com plays in my recovery. I'm very glad you're here.
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Join Date: Apr 2010
Location: Mississippi
Posts: 7,910
Good to meet you Surrender and welcome back! When I was drinking I didn't feel positive about myself either. It was hard enough just getting through the day and fighting the urges all the time. It really wasn't any kind of life at all.
I was amazed how much my outlook changed after a little bit of sobriety. I'm glad you're giving yourself another chance, too! One day at a time - we can do it!
I was amazed how much my outlook changed after a little bit of sobriety. I'm glad you're giving yourself another chance, too! One day at a time - we can do it!
Member
Join Date: Mar 2011
Location: Wyandotte, Michigan
Posts: 5
I'm new to the site but found it after a relapse myself. It is good to be talking to people who understand what I am going through. I will be staying on. There is great people here and I thank everyone who has welcomed me.
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