Surlyredhead

It is amazing to me how a drinking dream can shake me to the core. I woke up this morning after a dream that I had relapsed feeling guilty, sick and ashamed. It took me a few minutes to get my head to stop spinning and realize it was only a dream. Even then, I was expecting the sour taste and headache that comes with drinking. In the dream, I knew I relapsed and was scared to death that someone would find out, I was even sick thinking about making a post here. It has been years since I have had a dream like that. I have been sober almost 17 years, but this morning I feel like a newcomer, I can't tell you how real the feelings are.

Today, I will focus on my gratitute. In the past, after a dream like that, I would be afraid for days that there was some hidden meaning in the dream...but all I feel is grateful that it was just that, a dream.

Cathy

Opivotal

I guess it doesn't matter how many days, months, years, we have. Seems like those drinking dreams come along and scare us badly. I've had them myself. Not often but the ones I do have throw me for a loop. Like you Surly, I take them as just dreams and feel extra grateful that day that I am sober.

Best Wishes To You!

Fandy

I still have frequent nightmares about drinking too....but it is easier to shake them off as time goes on.

artsoul

The ones I've had shook me up too........ I still remember some of them. Lately though, I've had dreams about my teeth falling out. what the hey??

I've noticed that even though I feel strong in my recovery I have a fear that something will "happen" and I'll suddenly be drinking again. Like I'm not in control or something. So I'm actually surprised I don't have more dreams than I do. It probably has something to do with relapsing twice after long periods of sobriety.....

So glad we're both awake and sober!

FT

I stopped drinking over 20 years ago, and over the years I have dreams where I am casually drinking wine. In my dream, I seem to notice I am drinking, but it just seems to surprise me a little, and in the dream I wonder how long I have been doing that. If I wake up in the middle of the dream, it feels weird, and what a RELIEF I feel when I realize I wasn't really drinking at all.

Weird.