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MIND OF DESTRUCTIVE TASTE
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Join Date: Mar 2011
Location: Chicago, IL
Posts: 744
New here...
After lurking for a bit and finally joining this morning, I think it's time I made my post.
Addiction is nothing new for me. At 18 I was an IV heroin/cocaine addict, did things I said I'd never do. In and out of rehab, in and out of psych hospitals as I am also bipolar and have ptsd.
I went to state prison for a year and haven't touched that crap since June 13th 2004
I began drinking in late 05 and by the time 06 rolled around I was a full blown alcoholic. Again in and out, etc you get the point.
I'm married and have a beautiful blessing of a daughter. I am now attempting to kick a 2 1/2 yr old pill addiction. Originally, I was put on them for chronic pain issues with my back and knees. Opana, Kadian, norco, vicodin, fentanyl and the latest a combo of norco and oxy's. I tried to wean myself..what a joke! Didn't work so now I am prepared to go thru w/d's, this is my first day.
It is my birthday present to myself today, to get my life back. I'm tired of them having control of my life. I'm sick of my tolerance growing out of control. I'm sick of constantly having them on my mind. I am thankful I never od'ed as it has gotten completely out my control. I have a problem. A big one. All this time, I prided myself on being clean from heroin for so many yrs, when in reality all I did was subsitute of effin thing for another. Who am I fooling?
Day 1. I'm exhausted. My daughter wants to play and I can't get myself off the couch. I've been thru cold turkey w/d's before and it's nothing nice.
Thanks for letting me get this off of my chest.
Addiction is nothing new for me. At 18 I was an IV heroin/cocaine addict, did things I said I'd never do. In and out of rehab, in and out of psych hospitals as I am also bipolar and have ptsd.
I went to state prison for a year and haven't touched that crap since June 13th 2004
I began drinking in late 05 and by the time 06 rolled around I was a full blown alcoholic. Again in and out, etc you get the point.
I'm married and have a beautiful blessing of a daughter. I am now attempting to kick a 2 1/2 yr old pill addiction. Originally, I was put on them for chronic pain issues with my back and knees. Opana, Kadian, norco, vicodin, fentanyl and the latest a combo of norco and oxy's. I tried to wean myself..what a joke! Didn't work so now I am prepared to go thru w/d's, this is my first day.
It is my birthday present to myself today, to get my life back. I'm tired of them having control of my life. I'm sick of my tolerance growing out of control. I'm sick of constantly having them on my mind. I am thankful I never od'ed as it has gotten completely out my control. I have a problem. A big one. All this time, I prided myself on being clean from heroin for so many yrs, when in reality all I did was subsitute of effin thing for another. Who am I fooling?
Day 1. I'm exhausted. My daughter wants to play and I can't get myself off the couch. I've been thru cold turkey w/d's before and it's nothing nice.
Thanks for letting me get this off of my chest.
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Join Date: Aug 2003
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Hi and Welcome,
I agree with you it's absolutely exhausting living in addiction.
I'm glad you have decided to stop drinking. Have you talked to your dr? Detoxing from alcohol can be dangerous.
Please know that you can do this and that you will find lots of support here.
I agree with you it's absolutely exhausting living in addiction.
I'm glad you have decided to stop drinking. Have you talked to your dr? Detoxing from alcohol can be dangerous.
Please know that you can do this and that you will find lots of support here.
Member
Join Date: Feb 2011
Posts: 267
Thank you for sharing your story! It is healing to face what our addictions are and share our story with others, so you are already on the right road!! You've come to a place of fellowship and support. Is it your birthday? If it is, Happy Birthday! 
I will be keeping you in my prayers!
I will be keeping you in my prayers!
MIND OF DESTRUCTIVE TASTE
Thread Starter
Join Date: Mar 2011
Location: Chicago, IL
Posts: 744
Thank you everyone for the warm welcome. I'm going to need it. Yes, today is my birthday and I cannot think of anything better to do for myself than rid this demon once again, hopefully for the last time.
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Join Date: Dec 2006
Location: Lake Tahoe CA
Posts: 1,098
Hi ILFY - I welcomed you on the other thread you posted on and well, want to welcome you here as well. You are giving yourself and your daughter an incredible gift. Stick around. There is someone here 24/7. Support is available anytime you need it.
Member
Join Date: Dec 2005
Location: Baton Rouge, La.
Posts: 15,238
Welcome.
Hi. I'm Sharon and I'm an Alcoholic living
sober here in Baton Rouge, La. since 8-11-90.
That is some 20 yrs. ago when family stepped
with an intervention sending me to rehab where
I picked up the tools and knowledge of my
alcoholism and setting me on the path of recovery
learning to live a day at a time without drinking.
I wanted and needed to stay sober for many reasons
and followed my fellow members listening and learning
from them how they stay sober for as long as they have.
For the past 20 yrs. I have lived the steps of recovery
that has been set down before us in our NA and AA
programs. I also continue to share with those who wish
to listen to my story of what it was like before, during
and after alcohol. Passing on my story of hope to those
still suffering and in doing so I keep recovery fresh in
my memory and stay sober one more day.
There are the Promises offered to us if we stay sober
mentioned in the Big Book of AA. I have recieved those
gifts, some slowly and some quickly. Today I am still
reaping the rewards of staying sober and they are precious
gifts I dont ever want to lose.
Just being Happy, Joyous and Free from addiction is a
huge gift in itself.
Hi. I'm Sharon and I'm an Alcoholic living
sober here in Baton Rouge, La. since 8-11-90.
That is some 20 yrs. ago when family stepped
with an intervention sending me to rehab where
I picked up the tools and knowledge of my
alcoholism and setting me on the path of recovery
learning to live a day at a time without drinking.
I wanted and needed to stay sober for many reasons
and followed my fellow members listening and learning
from them how they stay sober for as long as they have.
For the past 20 yrs. I have lived the steps of recovery
that has been set down before us in our NA and AA
programs. I also continue to share with those who wish
to listen to my story of what it was like before, during
and after alcohol. Passing on my story of hope to those
still suffering and in doing so I keep recovery fresh in
my memory and stay sober one more day.
There are the Promises offered to us if we stay sober
mentioned in the Big Book of AA. I have recieved those
gifts, some slowly and some quickly. Today I am still
reaping the rewards of staying sober and they are precious
gifts I dont ever want to lose.
Just being Happy, Joyous and Free from addiction is a
huge gift in itself.
Member
Join Date: Dec 2010
Location: New Zealand
Posts: 1,474
Welcome, you have a found a great place full of support that is always here if you need it.
Congratulations on taking this step, what a great present to yourself and your daughter.
Please do check in with your doctor, w/d can be very dangerous.
I look forward to hearing how you are doing, keep coming back to post.
Congratulations on taking this step, what a great present to yourself and your daughter.
Please do check in with your doctor, w/d can be very dangerous.
I look forward to hearing how you are doing, keep coming back to post.
Administrator
Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 211,442
Happy birthday and welcome Iliveforyou
I remember how exhausting and soul destroying addiction was. Thank god there's another way to live.
You'll find a lot of support and ideas here - and I second the idea of seeing a Dr
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I remember how exhausting and soul destroying addiction was. Thank god there's another way to live.
You'll find a lot of support and ideas here - and I second the idea of seeing a Dr
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