Day 1 Again...sighs.
 

Stopped drinking for a good four days. Decided that I would be alright to have just one drink this past Saturday for my brothers birthday and that one drink turned into a three day binge. Im so disappointed in myself and I feel like such a huge failure.

Hoping to get through today.

You're not a failure. Alcohol is cunning and the lure to drink can be impossible to ignore in an alcoholic. You said in your first post, "...I want to learn how to become sober."

How are you learning to be sober? Are you in a recovery program? Counseling? Your relapse should have taught you something...that quitting alcohol alone doesn't always prepare us for staying sober. Work on getting a plan in place if you don't have one.

Good luck.

You can do it!
 

I'm only on day four but I'd like to say you can do it!

Hi,

So, what did you learn about yourself so that this doesn't have to happen again?

Hi LaBellaVita

Glad you're back with us. Many times I thought one drink would be ok, and many times I found out it wasn't...any amount of alcohol puts me in danger.

Some good points here above me...have you thought about what happened and what you can add to whatever you've been doing so far?

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All you can do is keep trying LaBella. I failed my first time out. Did some homework, got some support and tried again. Its not just giving up the alcohol. You have to learn some tools to keep you there.

Best Wishes to You!

Did the same thing many times. I would set my intentions on having just a couple, felt strong enough to do it...... and ended up in the same shape as before.

(The other day I heard that old saying "the road to hell is paved with good intentions" and it took on a new meaning for me - :yup:)

You're not alone - and you can do it!:grouphug:

I can relate. Near the end of my drinking career (and knock on wood, that my drinking career is over) one drink would turn into a 3 day affair. For me, that one drink would lead me to get drunk, and than I would spend the next day or two trying to wean myself off of alcohol to slowly decrease the physical withdrawal. Your post reminds me of that, so while you feel terrible, know that you've helped some one else remember.

Don't be too hard on yourself! I also recently relapsed and am back to day 1 today. Atleast your back on here trying again.

I've learned that even when I think that I can have one, I can't.

I have to be stronger to control this temptation and not let it control me.

Going on day 3...feeling more rejuvenated than I've ever been :]

So, what will you do differently this time?

Do you have any kind of plan?

doggonecarl,

Ive decided to quit cold turkey. I know there are many possibilities for relapse here, but this is what I think is best for me now. I would like to attend AA meetings in the near future and receive some counseling, but I don't feel like I'm ready for that. I have the support of my friends and family and I'm taking it day by day; staying productive for the most part. If you have any suggestions, please feel free to message me. Im all ears. I've came to this site with the hopes of learning from everyone else's experience and to look for feedback and support.

I quit drinking in December 2010 for four months without the help of counseling, AA, or any other type of outside support. I was so proud of the fact that I was successful in going that long all on my own that I decided I didn't really have a problem and could go back to drinking socially. The first night I told myself I would only have 1-2 and it turned into 5-6. It was a downward spiral from there to drinking every day and the worst time of my life. I quit on January 30 of this year. For me, the first step in my recovery was finding an addiction specialist and on her advice, I found SR. I went to my first AA meeting this week and talked to people just like me and it was such a good feeling. I am still struggling with never drinking again but I think I have the right tools this time to make it. Beware of curing an addiction on your own and in saying that, please know that my heartfelt wish is that you will find exactly what works for you to stay sober.

LaBella, keep your head up and on to Day 4 for you! Day 5 for me!!!

Relapses happen! Alcohol knows just how to get us and keep us. You seem cool with going to AA....when do you think you will be ready? No time like the present! The next 3 day binge you may not live through.