aussieblue

Hi guys,
I haven't been logging on because I have been drinking AGAIN.
I am going to try harder this time , I really do want to beat this .I hope you will stand by me ,I know I have said this before . I wanted so badly to have it together before I fronted the Doc. next week.

Anna

Please know that you can do this!

We have all struggled and the main thing is to keep on going. What can you do differently this time?

wander2

Well Aussie. As it turns out today is the best day to quit drinking. you can do it..

aussieblue

I see my G.P. on monday I am going to talk to him about my options, possibly going back into therapy. I know I can do it, I lasted 17 days (not all in a row)
but 17 days out of the last month and before I was drinking heavy everyday, so I guese I am making progress. I am just weak.

Opivotal

You can do it Aussie! Thanks for posting. Keep trying. Do you have any form of support? If not it might be something to look in to. Your not weak your an alcoholic. Of course you have us here at SR!

Best Wishes to You!

aussieblue

Thanks I have been trying to do this on my own I do alright for a while but ....... my husband likes a drink too, that is where I am having the hardest time when he drinks ,It is not fair that he should stop because I have a problem and when I see him enjoying it I give in.

ReadyAndAble

I failed a bunch of times. And then... I didn't!

As Anna's question suggests, the key is to do something different, since what you tried this time didn't work. You can do it, aussieblue!

PS: While I agree with the whole "it's my problem, not my partner's" viewpoint, I think it would be reasonable to ask your husband to take a break for a few weeks. That shouldn't be a lot to ask of a normal drinker, and a small price to pay for helping his wife overcome a life-threatening illness. Just my two cents though.

CarolD

Welcome back.....

Bombshell

Hi Aussie, I remember you from the Class of February thread - I was on that too and fell off the wagon, just like you.

You are not weak, you are strong for confronting your drinking head on and doing something about it. You are making progress.

I'd say most people here have had slip-ups at some stage, the important thing is that you've picked yourself up and are trying again. You can do it!!

GodsHolyWill

We're definitely standing by you! You can do it!

JoeStrummer

I drank for 30 years and tried many times to quit, but when I last had a drink, on Feb. 18, I vowed that it was really my last drink. I have not had a drink since. I spend lots of time every day reading on this board, reading good books about addiction and sobriety, and generally trying to think positively. My doc prescribed valium which I use sometimes to help get to sleep, along with melatonin and 5-htp. I can honestly say that I do not want to drink any more. I tried smoking weed a couple of times (which I used to do nightly when I was drinking) but hated it and just felt depressed. I've quit it too. In the past when I tried to quit drinking I was merely abstaining while constantly craving. This time it's different - I really want and enjoy sobriety. I never want to go back to waking up tired and hung over. Keep trying my fellow alkie. You will win one day. It's worth it.

jerseytomato

Aussie I feel your pain. I couldn't get through 2 days without drinking for many years. But it can be done. Feeling the feelings and coming out on the other side is key. It sucks. It really, really sucks while you are in the moment. It feels like it will never be any other way. It feels like the end of the world. But it's not. You go to sleep (eventually sometimes) and awake to a new day. Maybe that new day isn't throwing $100.00 bills on your doorstep but it doesn't seem as hopeless as the day before and you can actually see a glimmer of hope.

Hang in there as hard as you possibly can. I give you so much credit for coming back and posting again and again because my guilt and shame and pride normally would make me never to be heard from again. You don't know it but you are helping so many people who are right where you are. Lurkers and such. Keep on going on.

aussieblue

Thankyou everyone for the support. I will be sticking a bit closer to the forum from now on.

EmeraldRose

Welcome back...I'm new...nice to meet ya.
I spent most of my adult years more OFF the wagon than on. It happens and it can be changed. We're with ya!

CrackQuack

Welcome back Aussie! We're right here for you. Always. SR is for you, me, ALL OF US! And hopefully it will always be here!
I know it seems unfair. I felt the same way when, after my last relapse, my boyfriend said he wouldn't drink anymore. I felt guilty because he felt he had to give it up and confused because alcohol wasn't my problem. Crack was! But it was something being done differently and prompted me to not drink and get to meetings and get serious. I just changed everything I could. 25 months later I am clean and very happy (though a bit stressed from work and school, LOL).
Maybe you might ask him if he could drink somewhere else or not drink at all just for a little while. He is your husband and should be willing to make a temporary change. Just let him know he doesn't have to but also point out it would be a HUGE help to you if he did, just for a little while.
*HUGS* Hang in there. You CAN DO IT!