Re-in-statement
Strive to be alive!
Join Date: Jan 2011
Location: Better place than where I came from
Posts: 549
So the ball is in your court. What are you going to do?
You've made a good start by posting here. You'll find an abundance of encouragement, wisdom, answers, sadness, happiness but most of all genuine people with the same goal.
Welcome to SR! Please come back.
You've made a good start by posting here. You'll find an abundance of encouragement, wisdom, answers, sadness, happiness but most of all genuine people with the same goal.
Welcome to SR! Please come back.
Member
Thread Starter
Join Date: Jul 2010
Posts: 10,912
Thank you for the welcome - so quick! I will come back tomorrow, hopefully. I am not very good at coming back to 'courses' or 'groups' but I really would like to find one place where I'm motivated to come back regularly.
Thanks again-
Thanks again-
Member
Thread Starter
Join Date: Jul 2010
Posts: 10,912
Thank you All again for the responses.
Well, I've failed my plan again. Did not drink yesterday (and had an awesome night's sleep!) - but today I gave in...
I know this (rather short resistance and relapse cycle) sounds familiar to many (most?) of you. And I know one of my problems is that I don't have a solid 'individualized' plan (that might work for me). This is true despite of the fact I know I lot about addiction theoretically (to be honest, I'm in the medical profession that deals with it).
So one reason why I've decided to read / post here is to see the REALITY of it from everyday life. Also, see if that helps me... The 'official' protocols allow much less understanding of real life addiction.
So I'm an alcoholic who knows about addiction but keeps failing the 'recovery' part of it.
Nice to meet all of you!
Well, I've failed my plan again. Did not drink yesterday (and had an awesome night's sleep!) - but today I gave in...
I know this (rather short resistance and relapse cycle) sounds familiar to many (most?) of you. And I know one of my problems is that I don't have a solid 'individualized' plan (that might work for me). This is true despite of the fact I know I lot about addiction theoretically (to be honest, I'm in the medical profession that deals with it).
So one reason why I've decided to read / post here is to see the REALITY of it from everyday life. Also, see if that helps me... The 'official' protocols allow much less understanding of real life addiction.
So I'm an alcoholic who knows about addiction but keeps failing the 'recovery' part of it.
Nice to meet all of you!
Member
Thread Starter
Join Date: Jul 2010
Posts: 10,912
I'm definitely not discouraged now. More the opposite: curious to learn and find / try new things that might help stick with a plan.
But, I think, the other side of the curiosity thing is definitely a 'negative' part when it comes to recovery... You feel down, want to change - then one (a few) days w/o the drug of choice and curious whether the addiction is serious or not... whether I could get away with it, staying at this phase...
Obviously it's the 'drugged mind speaking' but I also find it interesting that I drank today and still all seems this clear, and I can analyze it. This is very characteristic of me.
Can be drunk / stoned (desperate, crazy, anxious, frightened...) - and still be able to analyze it somehow.
Anyone can relate?
But, I think, the other side of the curiosity thing is definitely a 'negative' part when it comes to recovery... You feel down, want to change - then one (a few) days w/o the drug of choice and curious whether the addiction is serious or not... whether I could get away with it, staying at this phase...
Obviously it's the 'drugged mind speaking' but I also find it interesting that I drank today and still all seems this clear, and I can analyze it. This is very characteristic of me.
Can be drunk / stoned (desperate, crazy, anxious, frightened...) - and still be able to analyze it somehow.
Anyone can relate?
Member
Join Date: Dec 2007
Location: United states
Posts: 200
Trying to get sober again. I have had two successful periods of sobriety since I joined this forum. They each lasted six months. Then I started up again. It's been a year back on booze. I really wish I could kick this for good. I am not confident though knowing my history.
Administrator
Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 211,436
I found my reasoning and my analytical skills changed quite a bit after some significant sober time.
I think, even when I wasn't drinking, I was still thinking alcoholically for a long time, if that makes sense.
D
I think, even when I wasn't drinking, I was still thinking alcoholically for a long time, if that makes sense.
D
Member
Thread Starter
Join Date: Jul 2010
Posts: 10,912
Yes that makes sense. I even find my mental skills *very* different (positively) after just one or a few days of sobriety. This is honestly one of my main motivations to keep trying. Big difference in "what is" and "what could be" 
I know all this, now should just make it happen STABLY
I know all this, now should just make it happen STABLY
Member
Join Date: Dec 2007
Location: United states
Posts: 200
my motivation
I am just sick of how I feel. The fuzziness, the drunk nights, the headaches and feeling like I am waiting to die. I just meet my obligations in the day time and shut down at night. I have no positive thoughts for the future anymore. I just do what I have to to support the people who depend on me. I am just not happy anymore.
Currently Active Users Viewing this Thread: 1 (0 members and 1 guests)
