barriemum

I am so incredibly tempted to drink tonight. My husband is a big drinker. Our usual routine is to go over to our neighbours' house on Friday nights and drink/play darts in their garage. It's been one week since I've had a drink. In an effort to support me, my husband hasn't had a drink since last weekend either, but his plan is to try to limit his drinking to the weekends from now on (yeah, right)

ANYWAY, he's just headed over there to play some darts and have "a few" beers. I am so overcome with the urge to just go with him. I feel almost physically ill. I'm irritated to the point that it feels like when I quit smoking cigarettes awhile back!

Then I think about everything I've been through this week. Going to two AA meetings for the time, ever...the first few sleepless nights. Do I really want to start over? To wake up with a headache tomorrow and have to deal with the disappointment in myself?

I AM SO TORN. I know you've all been here. Just needed to vent. Thanks for listening...

Dee74

Hi B

I got to the point where I really needed my life to change - so I had to make different choices.

It's hard the first few weekends for sure - but we're with you...

Noone ever woke up glad they tied one on last night...but you just might wake up glad you stayed sober

You can do this
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artsoul

Hi B - I remember that first weekend. I had that sick, sad feeling too - and was envious of everyone who could go have a couple drinks. I'm sure I spent a good part of that weekend on this forum.

I kept telling myself that if I got through it sober, not only was I saving my life, I was building a better one. And I would be a stronger person.....

Little did I know it would get better over the days and weeks, to the point where I actually enjoyed socializing even more while sober.

Just try to dismiss that alcoholic voice and hold onto your rational one. You'll feel great in the morning if you do!

Anna

I sure do remember what that feels like.

Just know that you will be stronger for getting through this.