my first step
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Join Date: Jan 2011
Location: clarksville tn
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my first step
im so grateful to have found this site. im so scared and i feel so alone..but after reading several posts, i realize im not alone and that there are lots of people going through what i am. and while that in itself makes me cry..its somehow comforting. i starting taking prescription painkillers approx. a yr ago. for no good reason..just for fun..
and now thats where most of my money goes. im a single mother of 3 small children..and can barely pay my bills anymore moreless give them the life they deserve...almost noone knows. they would never expect this from me. ive always been a hard worker and a great mother. and now im not. im a failure..its not fun anymore. i want to quit but im so afraid of being sick...and not being able to get up or work. that sounds so pathetic, i know..i just dont know where to start..im lost..
and now thats where most of my money goes. im a single mother of 3 small children..and can barely pay my bills anymore moreless give them the life they deserve...almost noone knows. they would never expect this from me. ive always been a hard worker and a great mother. and now im not. im a failure..its not fun anymore. i want to quit but im so afraid of being sick...and not being able to get up or work. that sounds so pathetic, i know..i just dont know where to start..im lost..
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Join Date: Aug 2003
Location: Dancing in the Light
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Hi and Welcome,
You are not a failure. Addiction is a disease, not a character defect.
The best place to start, would be to talk to your dr and get his advice.
Withdrawls from drugs and alcohol are often difficult, but know that you can do it.
You are not a failure. Addiction is a disease, not a character defect.
The best place to start, would be to talk to your dr and get his advice.
Withdrawls from drugs and alcohol are often difficult, but know that you can do it.
Juggernaut of self will
Join Date: Dec 2010
Location: Los Angeles
Posts: 66
Hi Cheri, and welcome!
As you have already figured out, you are not alone. There are many others, myself included, who have gone through the same issue with painkillers.
If you have made a decision to stop then you are well on your way. You will find tons of resources on this site, including 12 step support. I hope you stay around and check it out.
As you have already figured out, you are not alone. There are many others, myself included, who have gone through the same issue with painkillers.
If you have made a decision to stop then you are well on your way. You will find tons of resources on this site, including 12 step support. I hope you stay around and check it out.
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Join Date: Dec 2010
Location: San Diego
Posts: 4,451
Hi, Cherinoble! Welcome to SR. My DOC was alcohol, and I don't know much about painkillers, but I'd second the suggestion to reach out to your doc.
Mostly though I just want to thank you for posting! The more the merrier. I'm a parent too. It's not easy to get clean, but you can do it—and a much better life awaits you. Really glad you're doing this after just a year. I know it feels terrible, but it could be soooo much worse if you waited. So good for you!
Mostly though I just want to thank you for posting! The more the merrier. I'm a parent too. It's not easy to get clean, but you can do it—and a much better life awaits you. Really glad you're doing this after just a year. I know it feels terrible, but it could be soooo much worse if you waited. So good for you!
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Join Date: Apr 2010
Location: Lowcountry
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Welcome to SR Cherinoble
I found this forum over 9 months ago and this place really helped beyond words.
My experience is only with street drugs and booze, ...but contacting a Dr. sounds like a great place to start .
You can do this.
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I found this forum over 9 months ago and this place really helped beyond words.
My experience is only with street drugs and booze, ...but contacting a Dr. sounds like a great place to start .
You can do this.
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Join Date: Nov 2010
Location: The Great Outdoors
Posts: 1,992
Welcome Cheri!! Glad you are here. SR is packed with compassionate people all in the same grip of addiction..whether it is pills or alcohol. Stick around..lots of helpful links here as well.
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Join Date: Jan 2011
Location: clarksville tn
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thank you so much everyone..like i said, im so grateful to have found this site. everyone has been so understanding and welcoming..it really gives me hope and makes me feel like there can be light at the end of the tunnel...
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