10 days today
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Join Date: Jan 2011
Location: Providence
Posts: 18
10 days today
I am 10 days today. Been to 1 meeting, though would like to go to more. I have a (from what I hear) not uncommon characteristic in that I have worked with addicts for 10 years (i work at a sober shelter as a on-call relief staff). What a hypocrite I was/am. So I am very afraid of running in to current and former clients at meetings since I live/work locally.
I have very supportive friends and family, many who had no idea I was going through any of this in the first place. I have always been an anomaly in life and when it comes to recovery/addiction I find myself wondering...am I truly an addict? do I just suffer from low self-esteem and poor stress management? who cares, all I know is I spent way too many days (when anything more than one is too many!) in 2010 wanting to put a gun to my head after a night of way too much booze, coke, etc. So here I am.
I have very supportive friends and family, many who had no idea I was going through any of this in the first place. I have always been an anomaly in life and when it comes to recovery/addiction I find myself wondering...am I truly an addict? do I just suffer from low self-esteem and poor stress management? who cares, all I know is I spent way too many days (when anything more than one is too many!) in 2010 wanting to put a gun to my head after a night of way too much booze, coke, etc. So here I am.
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Join Date: Oct 2008
Posts: 6,947
When I was in rehab for 2 months, the last month it was suggested (
) that we attend meetings in the community where the rehab was located... it was a small town... I ran into nearly everyone who worked at the rehab at one time or another...
Far from reducing their credibility, it made me realize we are all the same and it did wonders for my morale.... to attend the very same meeting.
I felt very much the same as you do... fluctuating between feeling strong and weak, euphoric and sad... It was part of my journey...
Get someone to go through that Big Book with you... take certain steps... and you will begin to feel a lot better.
) that we attend meetings in the community where the rehab was located... it was a small town... I ran into nearly everyone who worked at the rehab at one time or another...Far from reducing their credibility, it made me realize we are all the same and it did wonders for my morale.... to attend the very same meeting.
I felt very much the same as you do... fluctuating between feeling strong and weak, euphoric and sad... It was part of my journey...
Get someone to go through that Big Book with you... take certain steps... and you will begin to feel a lot better.
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Join Date: Aug 2003
Location: Dancing in the Light
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I think it's normal to have mood swings in early recovery. The thoughts of never drinking again and the problems we have caused others and ourselves can be overwhelming. Good for you for 10 sober days and I hope you continue to read and post here.
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Join Date: Apr 2007
Location: Australia
Posts: 211,372
Congratulations and welcome peacefulheart
Mood swings were definitely a part of my early sobriety experience too - but you're not alone here - lean on the community if & when you need to
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Mood swings were definitely a part of my early sobriety experience too - but you're not alone here - lean on the community if & when you need to
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