Finally realized I need help.
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Join Date: Jan 2011
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Finally realized I need help.
I've been on a bender that has probably lasted the past six months. Lately I've been amazed to wake up in the morning to find an empty bottle of Vodka. Last Sunday morning at 5:00 AM, I had the pleasant surprise of having no vodka or wine in the house. I went through the typical throw up dance because I didn't have any of the creature in my body. The TR's were stronger than usuall. I finally met hell.
I finally hit rock bottom on Sunday morning when I drove up to buy a six pack at a bar, only to find out I had to wait until 11:00 AM just to buy a beer. It was 9:00 AM. The bottom went a bit further down when I found out the liquor store wasn't open until 12:00 PM. I knew, there was no way in hell I would survive waiting until 12:00 PM to get a pint of vodka.
After many walks just to try to get rid of the shakes and the many hours of throwing up, I call my mother who lives three hours away. She told me to go to the ER and that she would be there in a few hours. I listened to my mother even though I knew this is what I had to do.
Folks, this has been hell. I have never been so scared in my life. I'm very happy I decided to go to the ER.
Tomorrow I leave the Hospital for my parent's house for the rest of the week. I plan on hitting severl AA meetings while I'm there. Monday, I have a meeting set up with an outpatient recovery agency.
I'm so ******* sick of the monkey on my back. I've known for awhile I've had a problem with this garbage and I'm happy I have finally woken up.
Couch
I finally hit rock bottom on Sunday morning when I drove up to buy a six pack at a bar, only to find out I had to wait until 11:00 AM just to buy a beer. It was 9:00 AM. The bottom went a bit further down when I found out the liquor store wasn't open until 12:00 PM. I knew, there was no way in hell I would survive waiting until 12:00 PM to get a pint of vodka.
After many walks just to try to get rid of the shakes and the many hours of throwing up, I call my mother who lives three hours away. She told me to go to the ER and that she would be there in a few hours. I listened to my mother even though I knew this is what I had to do.
Folks, this has been hell. I have never been so scared in my life. I'm very happy I decided to go to the ER.
Tomorrow I leave the Hospital for my parent's house for the rest of the week. I plan on hitting severl AA meetings while I'm there. Monday, I have a meeting set up with an outpatient recovery agency.
I'm so ******* sick of the monkey on my back. I've known for awhile I've had a problem with this garbage and I'm happy I have finally woken up.
Couch
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Welcome SC. Been there, done that. Don't want the T-Shirt.
Very glad to hear you plan to attend several meetings.
It's the remedy that got my foot in the door. Got me one of those things they called a 'sponsor' and a Big Book.
Before ya know it, after about it a year, they even gave me a conscience. :rotfxko
Not sure I would have gone there, if I knew they were gonna give me one of those things, dangbangit!!
Good luck to you.
Very glad to hear you plan to attend several meetings.
It's the remedy that got my foot in the door. Got me one of those things they called a 'sponsor' and a Big Book.
Before ya know it, after about it a year, they even gave me a conscience. :rotfxko
Not sure I would have gone there, if I knew they were gonna give me one of those things, dangbangit!!
Good luck to you.
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Welcome, and congratulations on asking for help. I woke up many mornings amazed and baffled by the empty bottles.
Things are much much different today. Life is good, and I never have to drink again!!
xoxo,
KD
Things are much much different today. Life is good, and I never have to drink again!!
xoxo,
KD
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Originally Posted by kdove 
Welcome, and congratulations on asking for help. I woke up many mornings amazed and baffled by the empty bottles.
Things are much much different today. Life is good, and I never have to drink again!!
xoxo,
KD
Things are much much different today. Life is good, and I never have to drink again!!
xoxo,
KD
Yea, the ammount of empty bottles amazed me as well.
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Welcome SoberC - glad you made it through the withdrawals and decided to reach out. None of us can do this on our own (thought I could and spent years trying). I found that once I got used to a sober life, it was actually a whole lot easier than one spent trying to wrestle my obsession.
Keep reading and posting - the people here are great!
Keep reading and posting - the people here are great!
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Welcome SC! I'm glad you were able to get help with detoxing and are continuing to find support.
I found that "getting rid of the monkey" has made life interesting and fun. I hated waking up feeling horrible and questioning my sanity after a night of drinking. That's not a problem anymore.
Your meeting with the outpatient recovery agency and going to some AA meetings is a great plan. And keep reading and posting here. Reading about how you are doing helps the rest of us. We're in this together. Best wishes!
I found that "getting rid of the monkey" has made life interesting and fun. I hated waking up feeling horrible and questioning my sanity after a night of drinking. That's not a problem anymore.
Your meeting with the outpatient recovery agency and going to some AA meetings is a great plan. And keep reading and posting here. Reading about how you are doing helps the rest of us. We're in this together. Best wishes!
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Glad you made it to ER and SR. Most of all, I'm glad you've come to your senses and are taking control of your life back. It's like dealing with the devil, drinking. You get what you want at the cost of your life. Alcohol takes our lives by making us slaves to it and often literally takes our lives, completely.
As of August, 2010 I no longer have any association with alcohol. It no longer has any place in my life or my body. My system is mine and it's clean. There's only one thing you have to not do. Everything else is yours. Sounds like a good deal to me!
As of August, 2010 I no longer have any association with alcohol. It no longer has any place in my life or my body. My system is mine and it's clean. There's only one thing you have to not do. Everything else is yours. Sounds like a good deal to me!
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Hi Sober Couch! So glad you could join us. I know all about the dance but mine was the drive heaves dance. Once they started hitting at a regular basis I bailed! Done. Glad you will be hanging around us! ISpy has gotten the theory I have..it is total disassociation with anything to do with alchohol..It has screwed with me for the last time. That entailed no alcohol in the house. Alot of people gone now..and no desire for me to go back. If you get a chance...pick up a copy of Under The Influence by James Milam. I have read alot on addiction..plus check into SR daily. We will keep you busy!
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Moms are awesome. Last week I was going through some serious medical issues that I've been dealing with for quite a while. I don't have insurance, so I was just struggling through it. And very poorly, I might add. But on Tuesday my mom wasn't going to let me deal with it anymore. She picked me up and took me to the ER, even paying the bill for me. Getting there was the important first step, as the doctor was able to temporarily treat my pain, but more importantly he also pointed me in the direction of the specialist I need to see. Mom also insisted that she purchase health insurance for me, and I found the plan and she is footing the bill.
I'm nearly 30, but my actions for over a decade have put me behind the curve in terms of being where I would like to be from a financial and physical health standpoint. I've made great strides these last 9 months without alcohol, but it's a long road and I'm just at the very beginning of the journey. I'm so thankful to have such a wonderful, caring person in my life who wants nothing more than my well-being and happiness.
I'm doing what I need to do in terms of school and work and following the terms of my probation, but due to the damage I've caused to my own life, sometimes my best simply isn't good enough and I need assistance from other people. I'm very blessed that there are people who care enough for me that they often offer or even insist on helping me before I even ask. And admittedly, sometimes I don't ask even when I know I should because I don't want to feel like I'm putting anyone out, even though I know that's not the case.
Good on your mom for getting you to the hospital. I would say that was much preferable to the alternative of a pint of vodka. I'd say most of us (not all...I know there are strained relationships out there) likely owe our mothers more than we could repay in a thousand lifetimes. I reckon I'll pay it forward when I have a little brood of my own.
Welcome, and thanks for joining us. This site was key to my early recovery and remains to be so. There are so many wonderful people here with vast amounts of knowledge and experience to share with you. It took me 9 months for some reason, but I bookmarked SR.com today. Hope you'll make it a regular visit as well. Take care and best of luck at your parents' house and your meetings.
I'm nearly 30, but my actions for over a decade have put me behind the curve in terms of being where I would like to be from a financial and physical health standpoint. I've made great strides these last 9 months without alcohol, but it's a long road and I'm just at the very beginning of the journey. I'm so thankful to have such a wonderful, caring person in my life who wants nothing more than my well-being and happiness.
I'm doing what I need to do in terms of school and work and following the terms of my probation, but due to the damage I've caused to my own life, sometimes my best simply isn't good enough and I need assistance from other people. I'm very blessed that there are people who care enough for me that they often offer or even insist on helping me before I even ask. And admittedly, sometimes I don't ask even when I know I should because I don't want to feel like I'm putting anyone out, even though I know that's not the case.
Good on your mom for getting you to the hospital. I would say that was much preferable to the alternative of a pint of vodka. I'd say most of us (not all...I know there are strained relationships out there) likely owe our mothers more than we could repay in a thousand lifetimes. I reckon I'll pay it forward when I have a little brood of my own.
Welcome, and thanks for joining us. This site was key to my early recovery and remains to be so. There are so many wonderful people here with vast amounts of knowledge and experience to share with you. It took me 9 months for some reason, but I bookmarked SR.com today. Hope you'll make it a regular visit as well. Take care and best of luck at your parents' house and your meetings.
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You know what the most disturbing part is? We do this to ourselves. All this pain and misery is self-inflicted and can be avoided.
I think you are taking some wonderful first steps and I sincerely hope that you find the easier, softer way. Keep in touch and tell us how you are doing.
I think you are taking some wonderful first steps and I sincerely hope that you find the easier, softer way. Keep in touch and tell us how you are doing.
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Welcome to SR, SoberCouch 
I'm glad you decided to ask for help and that you went to the ER.
Sounds like you have the support of your family and also a plan for getting more help after the hospital, which is good.
Like many of us, you may have needed to go through this own personal hell before quitting, but the good news is, you may not need to go through it ever again. Recovery is possible. Good luck, and all the best to you,
Lionne
I'm glad you decided to ask for help and that you went to the ER.
Sounds like you have the support of your family and also a plan for getting more help after the hospital, which is good.
Like many of us, you may have needed to go through this own personal hell before quitting, but the good news is, you may not need to go through it ever again. Recovery is possible. Good luck, and all the best to you,
Lionne
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