Class of January 2011
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Join Date: Jan 2011
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I missed this thread first time around but I'm now on day 25. Longest drought since...1984?
As of yesterday I had only told 3 people about quitting- 2 therapists and 1 friend who I didn't want to tell but had to (long story).
I guess I didn't want to tell anyone because I was afraid I'd relapse and then look like a failure.
But yesterday some rough stuff came up at work- my fault due in part to the surprising effects of drying out (lack of concentration, demotivation, etc.)- and I had to tell my partners at work. Felt kind of good to spill it actually.
As of yesterday I had only told 3 people about quitting- 2 therapists and 1 friend who I didn't want to tell but had to (long story).
I guess I didn't want to tell anyone because I was afraid I'd relapse and then look like a failure.
But yesterday some rough stuff came up at work- my fault due in part to the surprising effects of drying out (lack of concentration, demotivation, etc.)- and I had to tell my partners at work. Felt kind of good to spill it actually.
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Join Date: Apr 2009
Posts: 33
ok im back here to try and kick this bad habit of drinking too much by myself in the afternoons. Seemed to get out of control over the christmas break as ive been on annual leave and used this to justify to myself i could drink more. Tried to make it a new years resolution to stop but that only lasted a few hours.
Yesterday was 1 year since my dad died of cancer so decided to get my crap together and stop drinking so I cant forget the day I gave up this time and use it to motivate myself more.
What even made me feel worse is the night before the bin was outside to be collected full of all my beer bottles and the when blew the lid open resulting in one beer bottle falling out and smashing all over the road, went outside at 2am and thought what must the neighbours think when they hear this. Even worse was when the bin was collected and you could hear all the empties going into the truck. My neighbours next door have partied everynow and then and their bin nowwhere sounded as bad as mine. Considering there is only one of me how embrassing.
Any way feeling great today as its my second day with no alcohol and feeling like im actually getting things done in my life instead of getting trashed and not having to worry about them.
Yesterday was 1 year since my dad died of cancer so decided to get my crap together and stop drinking so I cant forget the day I gave up this time and use it to motivate myself more.
What even made me feel worse is the night before the bin was outside to be collected full of all my beer bottles and the when blew the lid open resulting in one beer bottle falling out and smashing all over the road, went outside at 2am and thought what must the neighbours think when they hear this. Even worse was when the bin was collected and you could hear all the empties going into the truck. My neighbours next door have partied everynow and then and their bin nowwhere sounded as bad as mine. Considering there is only one of me how embrassing.
Any way feeling great today as its my second day with no alcohol and feeling like im actually getting things done in my life instead of getting trashed and not having to worry about them.
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Join Date: Dec 2010
Location: New Zealand
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I was told that I lost my job yesterday, company restructured, and I'm not needed. A week of work left until the new company takes over and I'm expected to be here til the bitter end.
I'm hardly holding it together, I'm at work now, and would much rather be anywhere else. This has got to be the bottom right...not much else can go wrong in my life.
I've only managed a little over a weeks sobriety and feel like I am teetering on the edge of that dark precipice again. The temptation to fall back into my old pattern of relief with booze is soooooooooo strong.
I am trying to not think about it, what a joke. How good would it feel to get rid of these horrid feeelings with just one little drink.
But I know that if I do that, then I really am finished. Please give me the strength to not.
I'm hardly holding it together, I'm at work now, and would much rather be anywhere else. This has got to be the bottom right...not much else can go wrong in my life.
I've only managed a little over a weeks sobriety and feel like I am teetering on the edge of that dark precipice again. The temptation to fall back into my old pattern of relief with booze is soooooooooo strong.
I am trying to not think about it, what a joke. How good would it feel to get rid of these horrid feeelings with just one little drink.
But I know that if I do that, then I really am finished. Please give me the strength to not.
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Hi Manz.
I'm really sorry about your job....but you know as well as I do that drinking won't help a damn thing. You'll still feel bad...even worse now, cos you drank.
I know from experience the best thing to do is hit the ground running and start looking for other jobs...drinking (and recoverying from drinking) just takes time out of that.
I really hope you find something jobwise - I hope it's something better than what you have now
D
I'm really sorry about your job....but you know as well as I do that drinking won't help a damn thing. You'll still feel bad...even worse now, cos you drank.
I know from experience the best thing to do is hit the ground running and start looking for other jobs...drinking (and recoverying from drinking) just takes time out of that.
I really hope you find something jobwise - I hope it's something better than what you have now
D
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Join Date: Jan 2011
Location: Iowa
Posts: 52
Oh Manz, So Sorry! As if this wasn't a hard enough time for you. Sobriety is a new beginning, but it sounds like you're being forced a couple steps behind GO. Prayers are with you. You've made one brave bold move and that's amazing right there!
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Join Date: Sep 2005
Location: midwest
Posts: 231
class 01/11
well I am still hoping to be a member of this class . I am on new medication that I am not suppossed to drink so I am hoping it will work and that I can not drink also. thanks everyone for their support and I will try to support all of you also!!
. I am on new medication that I am not suppossed to drink so I am hoping it will work and that I can not drink also. thanks everyone for their support and I will try to support all of you also!!
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Join Date: Sep 2005
Location: midwest
Posts: 231
class of 01-11
hi,
well sometimes losing a job will work itself into new opportunities? i hope so at least, maybe something better will come along?
i like my new medication so far, but i am also on antibiotics for a sinus infection
, but i am hopeful that will be over soon!
hope we can all make it through together, one day at a time
well sometimes losing a job will work itself into new opportunities? i hope so at least, maybe something better will come along?
i like my new medication so far, but i am also on antibiotics for a sinus infection
, but i am hopeful that will be over soon!hope we can all make it through together, one day at a time
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Join Date: May 2010
Location: British Columbia, Canada
Posts: 1,149
25 Days....4th weekend no booze.
Yesterday I had World War III going on inside my head. I wanted to drink from the moment I woke up. Went to a noon meeting. Didnt seem to help.
White-knuckled it through the afternoon and evening. Reading this board and keeping busy. After a great big dinner the compulsion finally started to fade last night.
I see my addiction counsellor on Tuesday, and I dont want to have to say I'm drinking again. Plus my sane mind knows exactly where that first drink will lead and I don't want to go there.
Today I woke up so happy with myself that I didnt drink.
Strange thing is... today I have no desire at all to drink. None.
People here say these urges fade in time....I sure hope so. That was wicked.
Yesterday I had World War III going on inside my head. I wanted to drink from the moment I woke up. Went to a noon meeting. Didnt seem to help.
White-knuckled it through the afternoon and evening. Reading this board and keeping busy. After a great big dinner the compulsion finally started to fade last night.
I see my addiction counsellor on Tuesday, and I dont want to have to say I'm drinking again. Plus my sane mind knows exactly where that first drink will lead and I don't want to go there.
Today I woke up so happy with myself that I didnt drink.
Strange thing is... today I have no desire at all to drink. None.
People here say these urges fade in time....I sure hope so. That was wicked.
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Join Date: Dec 2010
Location: New Zealand
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Tough Day
Hi all,
Firstly... Hooped, thats awesome you got through a day like that!!!
I'm having one similar, its late afternoon and I have used up just about all my distraction skills...skills...what a laugh.
I even took myself for a walk up the local volcano(yeah volcano, extinct tho) and sat at the top to avoid the urge to go to the bottle store. The house is now clean from top to bottom.... and I'm not a fan of housework let me tell ya.
Played music so loud so I couldn't hear my booze brain talking...I think the neighbours may have something to say about that.
Tomorrow I start my last week of work....the stress is intense.
But I'm here, not drinking and holding on to the knowledge that if I do....it will NOT help.
I'm hoping this gets better...
Firstly... Hooped, thats awesome you got through a day like that!!!
I'm having one similar, its late afternoon and I have used up just about all my distraction skills...skills...what a laugh.
I even took myself for a walk up the local volcano(yeah volcano, extinct tho) and sat at the top to avoid the urge to go to the bottle store. The house is now clean from top to bottom.... and I'm not a fan of housework let me tell ya.
Played music so loud so I couldn't hear my booze brain talking...I think the neighbours may have something to say about that.
Tomorrow I start my last week of work....the stress is intense.
But I'm here, not drinking and holding on to the knowledge that if I do....it will NOT help.
I'm hoping this gets better...
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