closetdrinker

A 5K race is 3.1 miles, run as three legs with a late dash to the end.

Strong folks start strong and stay fast. Others start slow lest they run out of gas.

I’ve gone three days dry now but there is the trick. Too much confidence and I may slip.

I’ve been here many times before, 3 days only, so I must battle on to day 4.

Thank you all. See you tomorrow.

TheNile

I have also failed around day 3 or 4. You have my moral support and I am only starting today.

Anna

Good for you, Closetdrinker!

I often think it's not so much a battle, as it is an acceptance of what is.

fuel.injected

Days 3 to 4 seem hardest to me because of the hallucinations from lack of sleep and lack of food. The moodiness and fluctuation between depression and anger are the worst. And then like today on the morning of Day 4.5, a 1 hour walk while meditating and praying, and then, though tired and fatigued, I throw off the shackles of my rage and feel light again.

closetdrinker

I always struggle on day 3, perhaps its a feeling of having done well, or maybe its physiological, that is on day 3 I feel mentally stronger, more clear, so what the heck. Today is no different.

I like to say I am thankful again to walk, and I am, but I really wish I could run, work out hard, go to the gym. I was on my way to a triathlon.

Though one doctor said the wear and tear of running wore out my back. I like to think running strengthened me, lest my back wore out sooner.

The running analogies add meaning to those miles I ran. Running helped my control my urge to drink, or at least, kept me from falling futher. Funny, those lesons are still helping me now, though I can't run anymore.

Tread on friends.

TheNile

Day 3 or 4 is when you feel better and start thinking " I can do this anytime I want so why not have a few and worry about it later". At least that's how I am.

LaFemme

Hey closet! Congrats on day 3!

Love the running analogies.

I always struggled on Day 1 forget about making it to day 3....in a way this helped because the first time I made it past day 7 I was in virgin territory which is where I've been for awhile now

MsCooterBrown

Day 3 was in my head as a green light because in drinking days..Day 1)tie one on Day2)hangover day..then the dreaded Day 3) Feel so much better..time to belly up to the bar!
So I am happy that I saw my own mental cycle and beat it to death.
Everyone has their own pattern..I think this was mine.

Closet drinker...I love it that you are doing so well!!! Keep on ...

least

I too like your marathon analogy. It reads like a poem.

Soph

Hi Closetdrinker, I love running in races to reach that finish line! But along the way I sure appreciate those supporters whooping and cheering us on in the early morning cold when they could all still be in bed!

I also typically begin to feel so good at Day 3 and onwards that I have been known to relapse. Today (Day 2) I feel so good about not relapsing and I am thinking about that 30 day chip and how wonderful it'll be to get it (again ;-)

But also along the way there is so much grace and friendship here in SR, just like the people who support runners, I wouldn't want to miss out on it! So I am back in.

We can do it! I am treading one day at a time bro.

Hugs
Soph