Day one is in the bag
 

Someone told me on about mile 23 of my 2nd marathon, this one's in the bag. That is, we both knew we make the full run, even if we had to walk the next 3 miles.

So it is tonight. Evening came and mostly went. Day one is in the bag.

For me, day one is not the hardest, maybe its day 23. Last year, I went 1 and a half months dry. Not even a smoke. In October, I went two weeks. I've never been a daily drinker, but a drinker nonetheless.

This may be different. I finally want to say enough. Its not OK to say I only drank twice this week. I want to count my time in years.

Today is day one. See you tomorrow.

Congrats to you!

Good job CD!! Triggers came and went for the first couple of weeks...It got easier after that. For me..sometimes I think it was just what I did..like a habit. I felt like I should be drinking. Now the thought of it makes me sick. I don't subject myself to being around it..you are in a good spot in the way that your wife doesn't drink..that is a whole new ball game to deal with.

Good for you!

Congrats on day 1! I'll definitely be here tomorrow, too!:c011:

Nice job on day 1!

Good for you taking that first step toward sobriety and a better life.:c011:

congratulations CD :)

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CD what marathons did you run? Mile 20-26 is definitely the second "half" of the race. I'll keep counting days in the bag with you. We can do this.

That was Phila, three autumns ago. I remember her words because they came just about when I hit the wall, you know, thinkng you can't go any farther, and the women next to me says, its in the bag. Strong words of encouragement, they were.

That's really cool...I like that. It's in the bag.

Awesome, I really want to run Philly, (actually I want to run Philly and then go get a real Philly cheesesteak or two afterwards). It is a powerful feeling when you know that you will cross that finish line, that it's actually gonna happen.

I've been thinking a lot about why it is I can get myself motivated to do 26.2...a good thing. And then do something as foolish as drinking beyond normal bounds...and doing it more and more often.

day one for me, too
 

Here I go again. Day one again, again, again. I feel like crap and I am just shocked that I have let myself drink over and over.

I'm there with you beaglenut, same frustrations and questions. I mean, how many times am I gonna do this to myself? we can do this.

I feel like I must be brain dead
 

Why can't I do this? Why do I do this to my body? I don't even enjoy the taste of alcohol now. I am just doing it to numb. It has cost me my marriage, my house and my children. I know what I have to do, but I can't put it all together somehow.

Day 49 after a decade of secret drinking. You can do it. I have found a lot of help here at SR. I strongly recommend opening up to a friend and give AA a try. Remember, a day at a time.