2 days instead of 2 years....
perpetual optimist
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Join Date: Jan 2009
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2 days instead of 2 years....
Back to the beginning.......I would have been going on 2 years if I had stuck with it. I let my bully boss push me over the edge. He has been a monster for 3 years. I have since quit drinking and I am starting to fight back. (HR, lawyers, etc) I don't want him to continue this with the others...
I have to be accountable and not let the world drive me off course. I am glad I recognized this on time for the upcoming holidays....I want to be happy again. As much as I thought alcohol was my soothing "buddy" it was nothing more than depression in a bottle. It became the opposite of everything the demon told me it was.......it was not soothing, it created anger, depression, anxiety and paranoia.
I plan on coming here alot more and there is also a really cool addiction program at my church that will help.
My hope to all the newcomers to stick with it and congrats to all the Veterans that are going strong.
Day 2 feels better than day 1. Not great, but better. Thanks for letting me vent.
I have to be accountable and not let the world drive me off course. I am glad I recognized this on time for the upcoming holidays....I want to be happy again. As much as I thought alcohol was my soothing "buddy" it was nothing more than depression in a bottle. It became the opposite of everything the demon told me it was.......it was not soothing, it created anger, depression, anxiety and paranoia.
I plan on coming here alot more and there is also a really cool addiction program at my church that will help.
My hope to all the newcomers to stick with it and congrats to all the Veterans that are going strong.
Day 2 feels better than day 1. Not great, but better. Thanks for letting me vent.
perpetual optimist
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Join Date: Jan 2009
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Matter of fact Anna, I refuse to go back and take anymore. It hurt my soul and confidence level.
I have been planning my own business! And I have a niche on the market here!
I have been planning my own business! And I have a niche on the market here!
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Join Date: Jan 2010
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As they say - it's not about how many times you get knocked down, it's how many times you get up! it was really inspiring to see your post today - it's never a happy thing to lose your way from time to time, but it's always a great feeling to get yourself back in the game.
GREAT JOB on getting back on track, thank you for your post.
GREAT JOB on getting back on track, thank you for your post.
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Join Date: Jun 2009
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I used to relapse after longer and longer intervals of sobriety and I sympathize with you on almost making it 2 years... I'm getting there too.
Its a HARD LESSON of falling into alcohol's empty promises but one that I myself needed to learn over and over. Eventually if you are serious and willing you will find yourself knowing 100% how terrible drinking really is which is a great way to combat the desires to drink.
I'm willing to bet it probably clicked for you
Its a HARD LESSON of falling into alcohol's empty promises but one that I myself needed to learn over and over. Eventually if you are serious and willing you will find yourself knowing 100% how terrible drinking really is which is a great way to combat the desires to drink.
I'm willing to bet it probably clicked for you
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Join Date: Mar 2010
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Sorry that happened VC, but I'm thankful that you're back here posting, and I hope this new business you're planning is very successful! I believe things happen for a reason (sometimes we have to make that reason ourselves), and perhaps this will be the opportunity you needed to leave that environment and do something different.
There have been many times these last 8 months when I've felt just totally beaten, down in the dumps, and I really want a beer, a shot, or 12 of each. I've had to fight that urge, and it really hasn't been easy. All I can think of is how bad I would feel about myself the next day. At least I'm able to do that; when I was drinking I couldn't even see 1 day in the future.
Thanks for being here, and good luck on Recovery 2.0. We're all here for you. Like Alfred said in Batman Begins: "Why do we fall? So we can learn to pick ourselves up." Hope you have a great Day 3!
There have been many times these last 8 months when I've felt just totally beaten, down in the dumps, and I really want a beer, a shot, or 12 of each. I've had to fight that urge, and it really hasn't been easy. All I can think of is how bad I would feel about myself the next day. At least I'm able to do that; when I was drinking I couldn't even see 1 day in the future.
Thanks for being here, and good luck on Recovery 2.0. We're all here for you. Like Alfred said in Batman Begins: "Why do we fall? So we can learn to pick ourselves up." Hope you have a great Day 3!
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Join Date: Nov 2010
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Starting over is tough but I am so glad you are here and on day 2 now, like you said, better than day 1. It sounds like you are on the right track and already know what doesn't work for you. I am glad you posted!
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Welcome back VC, and thanks for checking in and letting us know how you are doing. I am sorry things have not all worked out, but glad you are here. Feel free to come back to our August 2009 group. We would love to have you.
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