ETOH1977

I really don't know what to say or start. I love to drink, not just for the "feel good" effect, but the taste in general. I have been consistant goin on 7 yrs now. I never party or partied when I was in college. I was always straight edge, 4.0 gpa, multiple degrees etc....great family, wife and friends. I am in my early 30's and just like to drink. I am not chronically depressive, I get down sometimes thinking back to the good ol days of yester year i.e my great childhood and the good times of the 80's. It starts with that sometimes. I will sit and watch a good ol flick from when I was a kid and wish I could go back to that time again, knowing I can't but for atleast 2 hrs or the duration of the movie or however long I make it last, I am trasported back in time using my good ol time machine alcohol. Also, whenever I am having a good time with family and friends I go overboard and make it even "better" by getting/making a drink, only to find that I over did it and have disappointed and hurt everyone that cares for me. My parents are not alcoholics nor any of my family. The only two alcoholics were my two grandfathers, but they have passed. I wish they were around so I could talk to them. One quit cold turkey in his 30's, the other one didn't and passed at the early age of 59. I have a brother, and he doesn't have a problem. Everyone I know can have one or two and be fine for weeks. I want to be like this, I want control.....this is my situation in a nutshell....thanks for listening......E

Dee74

Hi E

welcome

I wanted that too, but after years of trying I had to accept I just wasn't like those other people. My life got better when I recognized that alcohol was the source of most of my sadness and most of my problems.

If alcohol is causing problems in your life, maybe you owe it to yourself and those who love you to consider that you might be better off without it too?

And those movies and music - they still have the nostalgic effect without alcohol, believe me...

I thought I was missing my youth and I'd get down too, but really I was missing the me I used to be...but I've got him back now....I'd buried him under years of booze.

I don't regret leaving booze behind

Hope to see you around E
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louis

Hi there E

Welcome to SR.

I totally agree with what Dee said... I thought i had to drink to enjoy things... i cant say i was trying to get back my youth because i had drank through most of my youth.

I hurt lots of people when i drank and i could never drink like others did. When i first realised i had an issue with drink... i tried to control it... i believed that if i could drink like others.. just take a couple and enjoy it like others it would be fine... but it didnt work.

Once i started drinking i couldnt stop... and i turned people against me... they had to walk away for there own sanity.

As for old movies... its been nearly 2 years since my last drink and i sat hapily watching a christmas carol last night... it was even better without a drink... cos i remember the ending and also i didnt spend time worrying about having enough drink to last.

Hope to see you around

Fluttering

Hi E...Been there done that...even got the tee shirt...and finally figured out I can't change the past and the alcohol was only lying to me about being a time machine...

I can change what happens to me today tho. We're here if you need us.

ETOH1977

thanks for the welcome and personal advice. I know that I will be a permanent resident here. I go for my first AA meeting thursday night......what is to be expected?

SwanSong

In my humble opinion, same thing as here. People sharing their experience, strength and hope.

Also face to face acceptance by other alcoholics fighting the same disease. Good for you! Coming here was a great first step, going to an AA meeting is solid follow up.

least

Welcome to the family! If alcohol is causing you any problems whatsoever it's best to just quit drinking. This site and AA are good places to get support and useful info on how to quit and stay sober.