Convinced.
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I guess it is simply the fear of not knowing who you are without it. I feel almost naked but any option is better than the booze option. I can't fix this overnight and i won't know who i am next week either. I always want an immediate fix. But i need to be patient and chill. All this anxiety doesn't help much either.
I keep telling myself -- I would rather not know who I am, than wake up tomorrow and not know what i did last night...
I keep telling myself -- I would rather not know who I am, than wake up tomorrow and not know what i did last night...
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Welcome to you too fdsajkll 
Feel free to start a thread yourself to introduce yourself - you'll get more response that way
good to see you're racking up the days si - you too YouAreNo1, RGB, silly....
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Feel free to start a thread yourself to introduce yourself - you'll get more response that way
good to see you're racking up the days si - you too YouAreNo1, RGB, silly....
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Hi fdsajkll
Your comment "I guess it is simply the fear of not knowing who you are without it" is an interesting one to discuss.
I have found over the past couple of years, I have changed. It's a lot more "in the now" (listening to Eckhart Tolle has been brilliant) and getting pleasure in the small things, ie, the sunset, a swim, an interesting conversation (where I am genuinely interested in the persons point of view), being tidier, more compassionate, and trying to be a better husband, father, and person. I guess people around me have thought that I've become quieter - I have tried to give excuses as to why I don't want to "come over friday night for pizza" - the temptation is there and I have wanted to give myself the best chance to not relapse. This is the new me and I don't care - it's the real me and it's not scary at all.
Trust yourself, back yourself 110% to make the change.
Rosco.
Life=Fun; Alcohol=devastation.
Your comment "I guess it is simply the fear of not knowing who you are without it" is an interesting one to discuss.
I have found over the past couple of years, I have changed. It's a lot more "in the now" (listening to Eckhart Tolle has been brilliant) and getting pleasure in the small things, ie, the sunset, a swim, an interesting conversation (where I am genuinely interested in the persons point of view), being tidier, more compassionate, and trying to be a better husband, father, and person. I guess people around me have thought that I've become quieter - I have tried to give excuses as to why I don't want to "come over friday night for pizza" - the temptation is there and I have wanted to give myself the best chance to not relapse. This is the new me and I don't care - it's the real me and it's not scary at all.
Trust yourself, back yourself 110% to make the change.
Rosco.
Life=Fun; Alcohol=devastation.
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Welcome 6yearsold - you'll find a lot of support here.
It is scary - but you're not alone in this - we've all been there
Feel free to start your own thread too - you will get more support that way
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It is scary - but you're not alone in this - we've all been there
Feel free to start your own thread too - you will get more support that way
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